<3

2010-07-23T04:52:00.000-07:00

Yeah , you all can see my f*&* up face right now,
I dont know why im feeling so messed up .
Girls out there , have you ever felt jealous cuz' you are constantly comparing yourself with others with practically everything and anything and u just cant seem to control it ?
Yeah , I'm one of them too. I don't know why im starting to care about my looks so much,
geeesh.

Well , there goes the first 4 weeks of July. :O
Test results :
Mathematics Simultaneous : 7/10
Mathematics Test: 19/30 ( whee ! :B )
Higher Chinese : 24/50 ( srsly , wdv man. :) )
Biology Science : ? / 22
Vocabulary Test : ? / 50

My math is starting to get up now. Im srsly so happy.
Someone whom used to score single digits over 30 or 20 now scoring a B .
Gonna work hard for the upcoming mensuration test . :)
& , just when my math is improving , my higher chinese is in a boderline range.
Like argh , why is chinese so difficult to pass ?!? Im so pissed .
Screwed my vocab today argh.
However , Art was pretty fun though ! Shall upload the pictures of my drawings
once i've completed all seven of them okay !

Upcoming Tests :
Geography Test : Rivers
History Test : Chapter 7 ( i think . )
Mathematics Test : Mensuration .

I'm determined to get into Triple science + Elect. Geog.
Please , let me have this combination .
Well , Sayonara peeps , will update on next Friday :)

Signing off ,
SiokHwee.

2010-07-19T05:05:00.000-07:00

Watched Despicable me on Saturday with Eugenia and Hanjie. :)
Was a kiddy show but it was hilarious :D

Awwws , Agnes is seriously adorable ! I really wanna pinch her cheeks ! :)
" It's so fluffy that i'm guna die ! " Hahahaha !

Well , toodles !

2010-07-18T07:10:00.000-07:00

& Yep , Had a memorable birthday <3>Time for school ! :)

2010-07-12T06:57:00.000-07:00

PYTHAGORAS THEOREM :)

a2 + b2 = c2 :)

Hehehehe ! :D

MATH TEST IS COMING AND I GOTTA STUDY !! :)

2010-07-09T19:29:00.000-07:00

I had totally lost interest in everything.
There are many reasons for me not to love you anymore,
but there's just this one reason that kept me holding on of you...
why?

2010-07-08T03:50:00.000-07:00

Super Junior - Bonamana.
This dance is awesome man :)
Introduced by this Alynnanana !! Yay !
Dont know why , but i've been influenced to listen to korean songs more than english songs nowadays. English songs are getting more and more boring, I mean , seriously.

Anyway school was a dread. Screwed history project. Felt depressed for no reason and i practically have no mood for anything. School's getting boring, more boring than staying @ home for holidays. Gah.
There's :
MONDAY ;
01: Geography Quiz
02: Biology Test
THURSAY ;
03: Math test
04: Higher Chinese test

Omg , this is seriously crazy.
& oh yeah by the way , had gotten 7/10 for simultaneous quiz :) HEHE . Not bad aye, hardwork did pay off somehow ! Gah ! Well , i just have to bury my head in the books and bear with it for awhile.

Netball is so tiring, i dont even like it anymore. I really , really , really hate it. Imagine doing something twice a week for 4 hours, it's total insanity. I can't even bring myself to learn that i had been in netball for the past 1.5 year.

Exactly 2 more years , and im free from netball. Just have to press on and endure all these sufferings );
Sobsob, someone , save me !

2010-07-05T07:12:00.000-07:00

Well all ends well for the first week of school ! :)
There's going to be projects and tests coming up ! Pray hard that i get 7/10
for my quiz ); I need it badly ; Yes , badly. Anyway ! Mega concert totally rocked !
Omygosh ! :) Im starting to miss it already ! Gah ! I am so stressed right now and i seriously dont know what to do , im seriously freaked out ! Gah , somebody , anybody ? D:

Anyway got to watch eclipse ! It was kind of boring at the beginning but things is starting to get tensed as it comes towards the end ! Jacob has a fa-ta-bu-lous hawt body ! ( RIGHT EUGENIA LEE ? ) Anyway , Jacob is so funny alright , and he is definitely hot :) Those that are a fan of the twilight series , be sure to catch this :D

Well have to rush history proj now. Tata !

P.s./ I came upon hearing this 'old' song and its kind of captured my heart.
Though it's been a long time since i've heard this song but it's still pleasing to my ears.
Well , Old songs have their own unique melody and its good to hear some old songs to reminscience :) David Archuleta <3.

David Archuleta : A little too not over you. ( 2008 )
Oohhhh oh, oh..
It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

2010-07-04T09:18:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS OR FOE.
Many of the times , we say i love you to our friends. But how many times do we really mean it?
Yes, Friends come and go into your life and made an impact , be it major or minor changes, to your life. Those friends that stick with you till the very end are the ones worth keeping. Dont wait for them to turn their backs and come back to you , cuz they are the ones who will never realise how precious you are until you are gone, or probably never even realise that anyway.
You are unique, they dont know how to cherish you its their business and you definitely have no issues with yourself. " I rather be hated for someone whom i am , rather than being loved by someone whom im not . " Be yourself , they dont know how to cherish you , their problem.

When you come to your lowest point of life , try thinking about those who stuck to you till the very end , and cherish those people just right infront of your eyes and appreciating what you have and rather than just sitting around and dreading and dreading , hoping for the impossible to happen. Life is ours , we live how we want to live. We shouldnt let our emotions overwhelm us and take control over how our mind works, epescially the negative thoughts. Yes, Negative thoughts are powerful and strong and it can affect us really badly. Instead of viewing it in this perspecitive , why not try to look on the brighter side of your life? Simple things ranging from having a perfect family , have friends who care about you , having enough money to eat or drink and not having to worry not having enough money to eat. It's really that simple. Be it happy or sad , time doesnt stop to wait for you to recover from depression or hurt. How you want your day to end depends how you view it in your perspective however bad the day was. :)

On the last note , dont let your emotions take control of you, cherish the things you have right infront of your eyes, not something you dont have and others do, cuz what you have others might not , and others might be envy of you secretly, too . You never know :D

BE YOURSELF :)

2010-07-03T05:20:00.000-07:00

FOREVER21 DRESSES :)

Forever21 dresses are so awesome :D Going to wear a white one tomorrow. Gping to wear heels tomorrow cuz i srsly dont have any nice flats ! Dammit !

Ah mega concert tomorrow :D So excited yeah :)

Hahahaha , Jiayou for everyone who's performing tomorrow yeah ! Let your hardwork pay off :)

Jiayou :D

Alright short post ending here.

2010-07-02T04:13:00.000-07:00

Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg - California Gurls
This music video was somewhat random and it doesnt have anything to do with the lyrics. But it was cute though :D Hahha , especially the gummy bears , awwws . Makes me feel hungry.

Well , training has been cancelled today due to the heavy rain. Went home and slacked till now. I really should get started on my homework if i want to slack on monday :D I'm tired to post, will post longer when i have the time :)

Toodles.

2010-07-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

I HAVE MISJUDGED A PERSON ,
Well, it's been a tough day for me today.

firstly , i didnt manage to get enough sleep cuz i was busy studying math till late night .
Well , after today i felt more relieved that ever , but yet at the same time , somewhere in my heart , i feel the sense of guilty in me. Having misjudging someone who has good intentions for you is thy worst thing that could ever happen , be it friends, your cat,dog,fish, or whatever lah :D

I used to detest a particular person because of her actions and such. It really irritates me to see her and everytime i do, i wish that paticular person would just go away or just vanish that very moment. Though now i don't have to face her much anymore , maybe twice a week or so, so it really doesnt matter.

She came up and talked to me today and i felt so relieved. I thought that she thought the same way like i did towards her. She cleared with me what i had all along mistaken her intentions.
I felt so remorseful and guilty and i really dont know what to say about it. However , now that i know that we have no hatred between each other, we can get along quite well :D

Anyway , speaking of misjudging , i realised that by not speaking up, there are people who will misjudge you as they perceive it as what it is and not reading deeper in between the lines. Well, i dont expect everyone will do that, but being someone close to you, of course there is a certain level of expectation. Well, i've mentioned it lots of times to him but he just dont get it /: Well nevermind . It just aint easy to speak up when you aint that kind of person. Like what it is stated in disney show " marilyn the spy" i think? People are allow to have secrets , no matter how close you are with someone It's our own privacy and we prefer to be kept that way. Likewise, you can't just force somebody to tell you why they are upset. This will only further deepened the scar in the heart especially you are one's best friend. I do , admit though , It was partly my fault for not opening up , and made my good friend thought that i was hiding things from him.
Ah, gosh.

It's 3AM in the morning and im still awake, tomorrow there's school ! D: Ah omg i dont wanna go school . So lazy.
Shall end it here.

2010-06-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

Photography Credits : Alvah Lee :D
Happy Birthday HanJie !
Threw a surprise party for HJ today !
On monday, lynn,anning,edwin,keeve,nicholasng,Xavier,charmaine and I went to T1's the icing room to do a cake for him :D The cake cost $28.90 for 8 inch ! Though it was kind of expensive but it's worth it though. Edwin and Nick drew the stupid baoya face which i find it super funny ttm (: ! After completing the cake, the guys left for lan? charmaine and I went up to buy zinc bag for him and went to cotton on to shop awhile :D

On tuesday, HJ didnt know what was happening and i kept passing the notes to edwin and he was kinda angry ? ): Awwws. hahaa !

Today, I woke up @ 7.00AM i realised that I'm late as i was supposed to meet at 7.45AM ! My dad sent me to school so i was early ! :) Camp-ed at 2/1 with zoe. Hehehe , after that yongxuan came :D
Wanted to pull chun heng to come up to our class but failed to do so ;D Hahaha ! Yogen & lynn kept going in and out and hanjie kinda found out about this :O Keeve and yogen distracted him like crazy , Hahaha ! Keeve came in with the cake and they sang the birthday song out of tune hahaha ! :D the guys :) Realised that there was no knife so we used a fork to cut the cake instead ! Hahahaha ! The cake was delicious though it melted a little !
As for the presents ,
Zoe , Siqi W. , Tian Ning , Yogen , Edwin , Keeve and myself bought him a zinc bag,
while some people shared the cost for the cake :D
Thanks to charmaine chen for making the icings :D
& Alvah Lee for 'spying' on hanjie , Hahahaha ! (:

Anyway HanJie , Happy fourteen birthday and may your wishes come true yeah ! Stay chubby and annoying , hahahaha !! :D

Anyway , it was a really awesome day :D Hehe .
Ah , tomorrow got math test ): Siansian ! All the best to me !
Toodles !

2010-06-25T09:32:00.000-07:00

MATHEMATICS.

I finally came to my senses that i really need to work hard on math. I cant escape it no matter what , be it now for the sake of taking A math and also doing well for 'O' levels. After i've graduated from temasek , i still have to continue in junior college and if i dont have 'A' math im seriously going to be put into those unpopular classes that makes me feel such a disgrace and a sense of regret for not putting in my effort in studying well.

I jolly well know that i had done really bad for math the 1st semester ( really bad . ) And my goal is to achieve 'A' math & also getting into triple science stream. I seriously need to work hard as this will be a very tough road for me the 2nd semester.

I really cant find any interest in mathematics at all ( i mean , seriously. ) You can threatened me kill me if you have to , but i'll just keep procrasinating and kept telling myself that its alright to do it later . & later means that im never gonna do it . I know i really need to pull my scores up but mathematics is just a plain boring subject which i really can't find any interest in it unlike subjects that are more alive & not just dry-content.

Plus , the teacher teaching me now is just plain boring . Damned it.
But really , giving all these excuses are only pulling me down . It's just like coping with what you have, similar to the passage being given to us during a higher chinese test. It's not how good the things given to you are , but how are you going to deal with what circumstances you are in , be it good or bad . It's seriously no point complaining about what you dont have and what others have and you just expect others to just symphatise you. The truth is , you just arent working hard enough .

Someone asked me this , " why are you failing when others that are from the same class as you can score so well ? " Im just not working hard enough , & i confessed to that. :)

So guys , i know you all hate mathematics but do it for the sake of yourself and not letting other factors affect you as well as make the best of what you have instead of sitting there and complain all the time . :) Good luck everybody :D

XOXO :)
P.S./ feels like im giving a speech , wahahaha !

2010-06-20T22:25:00.000-07:00

I seriously find no reason to blog you know. :(

I just know that i miss my darling fiancee . Holiday homework is just a piece of hell .

List of To-Do-HolidayHomework :

~~1. 12 JianBao~~

~~2. Geography Project~~

~~3. Science physics project~~

4. English Project

5. History Project

6. Math Ace Learning

7. Math Worksheet

I dont even know what to do for history project !

& im going to need someone to guide me along for math as i really can't do everything alone , it's freaking stress you'd know ! Plus there's this simultaneous Equation quiz which i have to study for . Mathematics is seriously killing me . I've gotta study now or i'll regret man. ):

Alright aiming to complete the rest on wednesday :)

Toodles.

2010-06-19T23:05:00.000-07:00

Letting you go , is the best option i have now.
Dont contact me and forget about the past.
If you can't forget , i can't be back who i used to be;
cheerful.

Best regards,
SiokHwee.
20thJune2009.

2010-06-18T09:29:00.000-07:00

Ohmygosh .

Do you ever have that kind of feeling where you want something yet you can't get b'cuz you have no money ? D:

I've been craving for these two things for so long manzcx but i really dont have the money to buy . Ah . I feel so sad . Sigh . I really really really hope that i can get them by september ?

Sigh thats long . );

My piano exam's on 22nd july , so people i will disappear on that day yeah HEHE :D

Im missing my friends alright . /: Gah .

2010-06-16T21:56:00.000-07:00

class gathering is finally over , i need rest ):

2010-06-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

Hehehehe had a wonderful day today (;

We've finally found some time to spend together yeah . :) Iloveyou bestieeees ! :)

@ 12.30 Charlotte came to my house . Not long after kaising called . Yes , she's lost . Ahahaha !

Soooo we went all the way to ngee ann sec that area to find her . hahaha ! She's super lost lah !

Went down to Shop&Save and bought bananas , bacon , lettuce , one carrot ( yes 1 carrot )shredded cheese and ice cream ;) Charlotte and kaising bought bubbletea and we went back to my house.

Kaising had forgotten to wash the lettuce ! Argh ! Omygod. We washed it after cutting it. Fried scambled eggs and mix it with cheese. Yeahyeah . Our so called salad was awesome ;) it looks great yeah . Blended banana, milk and icecream to make Banana milkshake. it's supeeeer nice.

Stupid Kaising went to add lots of whip cream ! Charlotte and I just stared at her and shook our heads , Wahahaha !!

Ate & camwhored cuz we've nothing better to do . Kaising was super addicted to the piano yeah !

@ 4.30 kaising left , charlotte and I went to the playground and played badminton . As we played along we started chit chating among ourselves . Hehehe .

Gradually charlotte had to leave ); Sob .

My bro asked me whether i wanted to play badminton with him , i tagged along .

So yup thats about all for today :)

I love you bestieeees <3>

Charlotte&Kaising ; Iloveyou:)

2010-06-11T00:48:00.000-07:00

I was having a bad day yesterday yeah :)
After looking through my facebook photos , i've realised that my looks have changed tremendously and also the way i style myself.

Decided to post some pictures :D

Japan 2008 with Jieying Jiejie :D

Mid 2009 6/4 Outing :)

2009 U.S.A (:

09 Japan , Tokyo :)

2010 SLC :)

2010 Student Leader's Workshop(;

2010 Alynna's chalet ; ( UNGLAM MUCH ! )

2010 Geography Trip(;

Well Thats all (;

Toodles :)

2010-06-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

My world has fallen apart , just like shattered glass. - Britney spears.

I dont wish to talk to anyone now and i might blow up any second .
Fuck.

2010-06-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

Wahahaha He's beautiful is so sweeet :):) Omgosh .

Anyway im back in my beautiful pink room and it's awesome :D:D !

MELODIE BE JEALOUS , WAHAHAHAHA !

I have not even started my chinese or math , god.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!

SobSob .. will post more later , someone just spoiled my mood completely.

Argh.

By the way , if you have any questions to ask me , you can post your questions

as anonymous or a known user in springform , yesyes the black color box (;

Well I'm off to sleep :)

2010-06-06T17:54:00.000-07:00

ROOM UNDER PAINTING

Hey , my room is going to be painted PINK for the next two days , so that means i wont be here and of course blogging yeah ); Awww i know you all will miss me :D

Nothing happened much these few days except that the fact that some dogs are seriously starting to get on my nerves . Anyway , Flattery is the highest level of imitation :) Haaaa ! :)

So yeah you , yeah you out there better stop it . Even if you dont , I cant be bothered to know anyway ;D You're just a copycaterr .

Okieee , im off in a rush now . Bye Peepos .
will post more after 2 days

2010-06-03T23:32:00.000-07:00

Oh-em-gee ! I want a SPONGEBOB CAKE FOR MY BIRTHDAY :O
SOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! Dearest Tianning Fiancee said that he aint any better off than some box . He's so square and yellow . ): Meaaaaanieeeeeeeeeeeeee ): Wahahaha .
I miss Tianning&Haini already ! D: Goshhhh , meet up soon :D

I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake . I want spongebob cake .

bwahahaha !

2010-06-03T06:14:00.000-07:00

Charlotte dearest is back (!)

I missed her so much . ); The previous week seemed like a living hell to me. Everything i do i would feel that something's missing . I really do feel very empty . The day she left i did not get to message her much as i was busy with some events . Well actually the truth is i didnt dared to message her much as im afraid that i might breakdown ; and i really dont want that to happen.

I've got to confess . It has always been awkward for us to go out together , especially not knowing what to talk about . It really hurts deep down inside . Yes , we are in different schools , we have different clique , react differently now . I just can't find a common topic to talk to you about . Nonethless , we clicked well and eventually had fun throughout the day .

I've looked through her photos in china and this brings back many unforgettable yet it brings a sense of remorse on me . I still cannot forgo and forget the fact that i've neglected you throughout the trip . If only i had spent more time with you , we would have shared much more memories together .

I would really love to go overseas with you again , regardless it's just malaysia or even the other side of the earth . I really dont care . I really want to have another chance to go overseas with you . I know this little wish of mine is less likely to come true as we're now in different schools . However , i would not let this be an obstacle for us to be friends . Yes , you've said before all these to me . After thinking through about it , it's realistic . Im sorry for getting mad at you , i just don't know how to choke out the word to you. Sorry , it's a very simple word with a in depth meaning . This word alone conveys many untold confessions non-verbally . However , i just could not bring myself forward to apologise to you.

Charlotte , i miss you . I miss everything we've had .
Let's overcome this together alright , Iloveyou ttm :D
Muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacks !
Huggies !

Glad that you're back in ONE PIECE , WHAHAHAHA XD

2010-05-30T19:55:00.000-07:00

People !

Do Help to click on my advertisment by nuffnang yeah ! :D Your support is much needed ! :D
I will love you ttm if you help me click if you click it everytime you visit it yeah :D
Thaaaaaaankyouuuuuuuuuus lovelies !!

2010-05-28T23:39:00.000-07:00

GREAT SINGAPORE SALES !
It's the great singapore sales , yesyes . The time where people would just go crazy over shopping for cheap and good quality products . Well , how good is this , " Great singapore Sales" ? Every now and then whenever i go into a shop i'll always see some rich tai tai or some housewives grabbing anything they could get hold of just because of the great discount . Often , i will always see women carrying truckloads of big shopping bags walking down the streets . I mean seriously , those shopping bags aint light , and it's more than they could carry . & it pretty obvious that they're struggling with those bags squeezing through the crowded shopping malls. I find this pretty funny though (:

Every year , my family and I would go to expo and shop for some good deals . Yep . It's indeed crowded . Last year , we've bought pillows and some toys that my brother wanted and thats all we've bought . I could see many people are just literally throwing everything into the trolley as if they're free . There's this lady who bought 10+ over bras and she was choosing more of them . Wowness man . Does she really need so many of them ? I really wonder . It's either she's oblivious about the money she's guna spent , crazy about the discounts or simply just pure insane .

Well as for myself , yes , i would be tempted to buy pretty and cute stuffs with an affordable price . I've caught myself wanting to buy necklaces every now and then even though in fact i only wear one of the necklace out everytime . & ya , i seriously cant stand cute stuffs , they sooo make me wanna buy them home !!! Especially soft toys yeah . Rawr , so annoying !

But well , the thing is , we just have to buy not just what we CAN afford but also the things that we would be using for a long long time . No use buying all the cheap stuffs and after that piling them into one side and during spring cleaning or something , all of those items would be either thrown or donated away . What a pity o.o

items may appear cheap but if you really buy lots of em' it may burn a hole in your pocket .
Unless , that is , you can't be bothered where your money is going . That , ive nothing to say :P
This is the time where they clear all their stuffs they couldnt clear from the previous sales . So yup , just buy what you need :D

Qualities of your companion
Hehe . Well ive been thinking through some things and i wanna post about
this .

Well , there's this mindchamp teacher who shared with us
about her experience . When we list out the qualities we look for in a guy ,
we tend to get otherwise . Yep . Well i must say it's pretty true .

Dont believe me ? Well , list down the qualities you look for in your guy/girl.
In the future , take this list out, compare with your steady , u will find it really shocking :D
Well , thats the power of love , ahahaha ! Laughs' !

This is the quiz :D here it goes ;

Would you like your guy to be ;
1. Mr. Ambitious= Its good to be ambitious , but not too much to that extend .
2. Mr. Shades = Nope , dont like.
3. Masculado = Too muscular is scary ! D: Just strong and fit would do.
4. Guys who give flowers = I love flowers(; Awww , so sweet (:
5. Smiling face = Hehe yep !
6. Hiphop = Doesnt matter !
7. Guys who ask permission before courting = Yep.
8. Has earring/s = At most one ! that looks cool :D
9. Used to chew bubblegum = No !
10. Long-hair = So long as its neat :D
11. Bald = erm sorry i dont like bald guys.
12. Antipatiko = No way.
13. Charm= Definitely .
14. Computer-games addict = DEFINITE NO NO !
15. Basketball player = Ahahaha , i dont really mind that.
16. Mr. Count-my-ex’s-till-you-drop = No ):
17. Mestizo = What's this ?
18. Guys who sing well = Don't get oput of tuned its enough :D
19. Quiet/tame = When we're out alone .
20. Cum laude = Yup , smart guys :D
21. Formal = At the right time , but not always !
22. Friendly = Friendly but not flirt !
23. Mr. I have an opinion about anything & everything = F*** you man ! my gosh !
24. Motorcycle guy = Doesnt matter.
26. Rocker = I hate rock.
27. Skate boarder = Nope.
28. Alaskador (prankster) = Playful yes , overboard no.
29. Flirt = Only with me :D
30. Mr. Every girl's dream guy = Woah . but i dont really like it.
31. Egoistic=No ! ):
32. Painter = Not really :D
33. Mr sweet talk= I hate it , seriously .
34. Mr. Love Letter = I love love letters ! :D But it must be sincere .
35. Mother's boy= No !
36. Talks Too Much = Oh shut up would you ?!
37. Soccer Hottie = Ahhh , ?
38. Anti-Christ = I hate people who are racist or whatever ist . LOL.
39. Romantic= Definitely yeah :D
40. Hangs Out With His Friends A Lot = Yes be sociable but not neglecting me .
41. Mysterious Guy = Hate it.
42. Cute Idiot = hahahhaa , definite thumbs up !
43. Guitarist = Neh.
44. Wide Vocabulary Guy = I love this kinda guy.
45. Loves you = Duh O.O
46. Tennis guy = Sporty guys are hawt.
47. Dark skin = a little Tanned would do.
48. Tall = taller than me of course.
49. Chubby = hehehe awws i love guys who has chubby cheeks ! xD
50. Hairy = EEEEEEEEEEEEW !

Well thats all :D

2010-05-28T03:52:00.000-07:00

Kissin' You - Miranda Cosgrove.
Lyrics :

Sparks fly, it's like electricity
I might die when I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there is no where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops like everything around me is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things I've never seen

'Cause when I'm kissin' u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place, you're all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I'm kissin' u
When I'm kissin' u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one, should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' u

Past loves, they never got really far
Walls of picture I've got in my heart
And I promised I wouldn't do this
Till I knew it was right for me
But no one, no guy that I met before
Could make me feel so right and secure
And have you noticed I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

'Cause when I'm kissin' u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place, you're all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I'm kissin' u
When I'm kissin' u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one, should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' u

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point even trying to fight this
It kinda' feels like it's love

'Cause when I'm kissin' u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place, you're all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I'm kissin' u
When I'm kissin' u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one, should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' u

2010-05-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

Charlotte , i miss you.

There have been many things going around ever since u left .
I really miss you , im totally lost.
Im awaiting for u to come back my dear.
Im hurt...

2010-05-23T06:38:00.000-07:00

Shrek 4 is so touching :D I rate 5 stars :) Well gonna watch it again w/ Hanjie yeah , hehehe !
Chubby puss in boots is soooo adorable omg ! He's as adorable when he did that act cute face * blinks blinks * Goooosh !

Well this story is just a twist on a happily ever after . Shrek is living a perfect life with fiona and have many good friends , but he just don't seem to appreciate it and missed being feared by the villagers and how he used to be before he saved fiona from the tower. We signed a deal with that little asshole and shrek is being forced back into the day which he wasnt born and everyone doesnt know his existence . Woosh .

Well its a very meaningful story yeah , you guys should watch it :D
Moral : Appreciate the things you have and not dwell on the things you lost .
Cherish everything you own before you regret . (=

Well off to slack now wakakaka :D

2010-05-20T04:47:00.000-07:00

Thanks a lot .

I've got this sexy hot fabulous F for mathematics .

Yay .

not .

That , totally screwed and ruined my whole day . Im loss for words . Yes i did expected myself to fail but not until this badly . 29/100 . I really cant hold my tears back any longer . And yes ive decided to just break down , just like that .

I know there aint any solutions for it now. There isnt any point crying over a spilt milk . & of course like charlotte said , i shouldnt get upset too long . A minute of sadness is a moment of happiness wasted and you aint getting back no more . Well , ive been through a lot and to think about it , i shan't waste my time dwelling on this fabulous 'F' , ive wasted way too much time , way too much time dwelling & dwelling , and neglecting the present until it has gone .

Well siokhwee cherooos , there's still hope. Like what miss azlilah said , they only look at the final SA2 (: I still have hope . But though there's a little voice inside my head that kept me from thinking that i could overcome this , but i chose to follow my heart .

Well enough about mathematics , talk about it anymore i swear i'll cry like a mad woman and no sweets is guna help :P ( MELODIE LAW !! ) Lol ! (:

Okay ! SA1 in conclusion :
MATHEMATICS:F9
HIGHER CHINESE:C6
ENGLISH :B4
HISTORY :B4
GEOGRAPHY:B4
SCIENCE: B3 ( STUPID PHYSICS ): )
HOME ECONOMICS : A2 ( 1 more mark . )
LITERATURE : A1

Well im quite satisfied overall and i did fairly well as compared to last year :

MATHEMATICS: E8
HIGHER CHINESE:C6
ENGLISH:C5
HISTORY:C6
GEOGRAPHY:C6
SCIENCE:C6
HOME ECONOMICS:C5
LITERATURE:C5

So im quite elated :D

Of course i want to take this opportunity to thank ,

Melodie ! ,
for always supporting me and going crazy with me . Hehehe , your hyperness has influenced me greatly and it really had helped me in being always the "oh-so-strict" class manager . Yes , i love you (!) thankyou for always being there for me when i needed a shoulder to cry on , and of course someone to joke and laugh with :D you've been a great girlf. manzcx ! * winks *

Charmaine !,
for always being the annoying orange , kidding kidding . But you're always comforting me in a way or another and always finding gossips to talk about , hehehe . love you <3

Yogen ! ,
for always being so competitive that has pushed me to work even harder and beat you in literature , hahah ! (; Yes you've been a very very funny friend and as well as supportive in somewhat way ( or in a sarcastic way =.=) Anyway , you've rly made an impact so as to let me to push myself further to achieve the results i yearn for like literature . (: ( though u still owe me $1 ) Kidding :D

RongChuin ! ,
yes for testing me all the science questions patiently and also discuss english with me . You've been a really nice friend okay . & please , you aint ugly , and dont take it to heart about this dog thing , cuz its just a nickname . :D You're not ugly ! U're alright okay !!! & its cuz of you ive gotten 23/30 for my essay , Thankyous so much ! (;

Lynn ! ,

Yeah , this gay idiot who's always smiling dunno why . Hehehe . Im really touched that u've remembered to bring tissue paper for me . Im so sorry for making u feel you know.. Ahahaha ! Thankyou for entertaining me in class when im bored , comfort me when i cry & all these small little details . You've really took care of me when im feeling down . I just dont know how to tell you . How i feel know its beyond description of words . You've really been the best and really the best partner ive ever had as well as a good friend :) Stay happie and elegant alrightczx , hehehe .

Charlotte <3 ! ,
Dearest darling omygosh ! Im sorry as ive been really really neglecting you , im so sorry . However , you always came to me whenever i needed comfort and some wise words from you . You're always there no matter what comes by . Im really sorry for neglecting you all over again just like how i did in primary 5 , forgive me would you ? Im sorry for hurting you so much . Im a really lousy best friend , you can say that again . I totally agree with you . My dear dear dear charlottie , can you let me make it up to you ? I promise i'll do it wholeheartedly . & yes charlotte , im sorry for pressurizing you into forgetting about that incident , people needs time , and i know that u're utterly disappointed in me , and yet you're the one who said sorry and did all the explaining . I should be the one apologising as you did not do anything wrong . Im really sorry charlotte , i love you ! ): Oh you're irreplacable . ): I hereby announce , forgive me , would you ): ?

Last but not least Idiot Hanjie , !

Yes for coaching me in science and math though ive disappointed u in math , im really sorry yeah . ): Thankyou for studying with me when i know that u dont wanna and i dragged u along , kept asking stupid questions that irritates you and also being so stupid for not understanding what you say for the 1st time but i eventually got it . Thankyou for having the patience to teach me if not i wouldn't have improved drastically . (:

Well thats all for MYE and this is the last post im guna mention about it yep .

Ooooooooooooooooooh so im off to bathe now . :D signing off ! I will be back with more news soon :D hehehe !

2010-05-19T05:45:00.005-07:00

Gosh , I'm glad there's no Cs :D
But however there will be and F which i will be receiving tomorrow.
Sigh .
I hate you , mathematics.

2010-05-19T05:45:00.003-07:00

Gosh , I'm glad there's no Cs :D
But however there will be and F which i will be receiving tomorrow.
Sigh .
I hate you , mathematics.

2010-05-18T06:26:00.001-07:00

Omg , tomorrow's the day ):
im so scared u know like omygosh ):
I practically can cry right now . Oh im feeling a sense of remorse now.
For not practising mathematics. screw ):
Soooooooooob. Wish me luck people D:

2010-05-13T03:46:00.000-07:00

Science is so sophisticated !

Science is so biased .

Wow , they give us so many questions that are similiar to one another and expect us to score all correctly , i mean wow . If we arent good in acids and alkali and they ask the repeated questions over and over again instead of other topics which we have studied so hard and tried squeezing every little detail into our heads and the next thing you know it ; blanked out . It seemed like whatever you've studied just didn't came out and all the efforts you've wasted went down the drain .

Science ; its so wide !

I mean come on ! How are teachers expecting us to learn every single detail on every single subject ? It's totally ridiculous ! They did not even give the specific topics to study .
Kinetic theroy of matter - brownian motion , etc. What they came out ? the simplest of all ; how molecules are packed together . we're just a bunch of 14 year old , stop scaring us like that , it will make us cry . Sob );

Science ruined my life ! ( kidding ) ; * but seriously *

Omg ive totally blanked out during the exam and i can tell you that ive failed my section B physics. Oh gosh . MCQs are so difficult and ive lost -11 marks oh gosh ):

Forget it , here comes another obstacle ; Mathematics .
Oh geeesh why must they put math and science right beside each other !!! its making me so stressed . Rawr ! ):

2010-05-10T04:41:00.000-07:00

I had a really bad nightmare just now .

I dreamt that i had gotten back my result slip for end of year . and my math got 48.5 which did not allowed me to take triple science . Oh gosh . i cried while asleep , how scary is that . /: Oh gosh .

Anyway i have a lot of issues ; yes issues about myself .

The issue about those scary numbers on a machine ; yes weighing machine ; those numbers with 2 decimal places that kills u softly inside .

Firstly, i do not like the way i look . I dont know when i started to become so self-conscience . I did not seem to care about how others thought of me till recently . & its really hurting me inside , a lot ; yes a lot . I dont know why i seem to care about it so much . People says that im fat . Wow , amazing ; not . I just dont know why i just dont like being called FAT especially from my beloved brothers and sisters . Though they did not directly told me but i can feel from them . I dont even have the courage to wear any clothes which is somewhat revealing anymore . ( dont think sick alright . ) Girls are just like that /:

Secondly , i feel that im screwing all my papers everyday . I have such low confidence in myself . It's so annoying . oh gosh please get rid of this bad habit for me ):

Im starting to get annoyed of myself . Sigh . >:( Screw my emotions !

Somebody , help me ?

2010-05-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Sigh i miss ballet); Omg . Must mugmugmug :) Really hope to get ace for literature and science;D
im so bored. sigh . mr bunny is still outside having dinner . Well i guess i can watch GTO awhile :)

I miss school O.O Do you?

Jesse Mccartney

2010-05-06T09:09:00.000-07:00

Omg Jesse&Justin are so hot . I miss jesse's blonde hair /: Though he still looks

super hot in black hair :) Hehehehe . Jesse's new album is coming

out and i can't wait ! Omygod ! Make it special is so nice alrightzxc .
Hehehehe theodore theodore ! ;) Come to think of it , jesse looks

a little like justin bieber don't you think so ? :O Hehehehe ,

just my own point of view ;)

Loveeeeeeeeeeees , :D

I miss red swastika school

2010-05-06T04:48:00.001-07:00

Omygawwwd , looking at the juniors ive totally miss my past ):Alvah lee has grown too much ( WAY too much ! ) Omg he broke voice and grew taller than me omgzxcx . Elisabeth is getting all-matured o.o Awwwws dr eliss doesnt seem to be hyper to me anymore ey ): I miss huimin and julia whose names never failed to be in my posts . Same goes for audrey, zhungyik, qiwei and felicia ! ):

I miss crystal chua piggy , phengwu penguin , ruiheng asshole ( & you still owe me two dollars just cos u help me take rack !! ) , mariayn cupcake , jinjin sister and sixian miss goldfish :O Omg i missed the times when we were @ mariayn's chalet , when we went out to watch penguins of madagascar and sabotaged phengwu to sit alone . Wahahaha ! After tht went to jinjin house and played :D I miss zhijia , clarice , vernessa quek , guangzheng & leora . I miss sitting on Bus 7 looking forward seeing zhijia and ruiheng as well as chloe chua . Omygawd and the bus uncle is super pervertzcxz .

I miss yuansian , bernice , beth , gennie , lim jiayi , cynthia lim , qinhui , jeslyn dearest etc. who has always been supporting me from behind though we're in diff class in p6 :)

I miss doing patrolling with celeste kokokokoko and xinni while slacking around around the koi pond . And the fishes are so huge ! And omg how fearful we all felt when we need to hit e target at least 70 for both higher chinese and english in order to continue in 5subject stream !

I miss the juniors zoe , jiaying , tammie , ellis , chloe , yongqing , patricia:D Omg hope they are doing well . I miss the C.O. times where benedict , eugenia , crystal always go to e mama shop hoping that we wont get caught . I miss xianjun , victor kor , yuexin laopo , ameliaaa sweetest !
Now we're just like strangers :O ): I miss the chicken rice , i miss the concerts , i miss the teachers , i miss the autograph madness , i miss everything .

Gah , well life is still wonderful here ! :D Just that mathematics is srsly killing me ttm ! ):<
Alrightzxzc , enough of slacking . Anyway Im so loving audition right now . Edwin helping me to cr8 an account for me as ive gotten suspended (!) Sob . Yeahyeah . Fingers itching . Wahahaha .

2010-04-29T03:38:00.000-07:00

Hello ((; it's been awhile since I've blogged . Have been so busy with schoolwork nowadays )); good news. 8) hehe . I've gotten 20/30 for biology which I thought that I wouldve flunked . Got 41/50 for home economics , 18/28 for the damn difficult physics , rawwwr ); overall gotten 64% for my science . Well I'm quite glad already as I've been getting c6 last year for almost every subject . I've regretted not working hard ); now that I've got mr bucktooth brother to teach me , I'm slowly improving already ((; ran two point four on Tuesday . Had. Real bad cramp !! Though it was painful enouhfp me to faint onthe ground anytime , I endured the pain and managed to pass my 2.4 and improved by 3mins as compared to last year . Thanks to netball that had shaped me up and the enxouragements from the sec twos especially Zoe and miss elegant lynn(((: 1st was ziwei daughter, followed by wydianny , Melodie then me ;D heheehe . I wannA retake with my dearest melmel !!! Bleh . Speaking of her, I just had my piano lesson just now and teacher told me about how Melodie was so elated that I'm sitting behind her . Hehehe ((; alright , the class tee can't make it tomorrow so we just have to wait till tuesday . Sad though . Well it's alright ((; hehehe . So long as it's arriving !! Dunno what mr bucktooth is doing right now . Miss going out alright ... Pray hard that I will score ace for my sa1 and get me into triple science !!! Please please !! * praying hard !!! Hope I am able to fulfill my own expectations for myself !! oh I went up to miss lim and asked about a question to clear my doubts . She was like , * smiling *" can or not siokhwee? " repeating the sentence twice and smiling at me as if she wants to tell me something . Supeeeeer freaky . Bbbbrrr !!!! Alright that's about all now ((: ohoh don't forget to help me click on my nuffnang !!!! Thankyous lovelies !!!!

2010-04-18T06:41:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since i've updated already . My life is so boring eh (= Went to alynna's house today. Had real fun dancing randomly , & im still trying to do split ): A ballet dancer must know how to do a split ! Argh ! Please let me do a split ): Sighhhhh .

There will be a lot of tests coming up & i FAILED MY MATH AGAIN ! ): it's like 12345times in a row u'd know ! Argh !

Monday will be doing my 100 balls again , anyone care to join me ? (: Haini , priya , hweejing , Rongchuin , jiongxu ? :D hehehehe ! Im so stressed up lah alright . Lynn has been getting more and more quiet , dont know why D; There's a lot of tiffs going on , including me .

Dont wish to talk about it . Im so lazy to update this blog anymore , maybe i should just leave it dead :D

& yeah , pau should stay in the steamer man !! steam steam !! Hehehehe !! <3

2010-04-10T03:05:00.001-07:00

Selena Gomez is soooo prettaye :D Watched princess protection program and knew about her . Charmaine chen & heyse introduced me to Naturally by her which is supeeeeer nice . Ahahhahaa oommgggg i love selena <3 ( but i love Jesse more ! )

Alright , nothing much happened and im sick but im recovering fast , yesyes ! I know you all miss me right , Hehhehehe , especially lynn :D Sorry aye yogen i still owe you your present ! Well keeve ! it's your birthday on monday and you're guna be older than me alr , Urgh ! I feel so small suddenly you'd know ): Sob . Yeahyeah , my didi is growing up fast , ahahahaha ! From cute little keeve chin till now . Though i admit he still has a baby face but he did shoot up recently in terms of height (; Of course , he is darker and muscular alr after all e basketball trainings ! Good friends for 3 years already eh , time flys ! :D I've glad that i've known you , Stay hyper and annoying ( kidding ) alright !

Early wishes to ;

KEEVE CHIN ELEVENELEVEN YI DA !

All the best and may all your wishes come true (;

Loves from jie :D

2010-04-06T05:26:00.000-07:00

i wanna thank hweejing and priya for staying back and patiently wait for me to shoot 100 balls under e hothot sun , and 200 balls for yesterday . A big thankyous to you both , i love yoooooou both ! Muacks ! Hahahahahah !

Nothing much happen today . Kor fooled around as normal . Sigh , old habits die hard ey kor ? Ahhaahah ! As usual , wna fall asleep during higher chinese and math lesson . & crap its going to be a test on thursday , im so scared lah dey ); Netball was surprising alright , but was really tiring . Gah . Saw someone that made me giggle all e way during my last round :D:D hehehehe ! Lynn copied SOMEONE abt the nose thingy luhh , aiyooooo ey . Ahahaha ! Took bus 10 back w/ Siqi prettaye girl hehehehe . Sms buddy ! <3 Im so glad tuesday is over . :D

My body is aching all over , ouch . Please oh please let me pass this time round god , i really need it ); Urgh , someone please massage me !

2010-04-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

I really dont know why he gave up just like that . Failure isnt the end of the road , and it isnt end of the world . Why did he think about him like that when there are so many good things about him that he couldnt see?

Now i realised why its so hurtful for him to comfort me , bcos i always dont wanna listen to him . I was a fool , i was stubborn . Now i know how it feels like , when someone did that to me . I know its very tiring , and it makes one's heart shattered . Why must i be so unfair to him . Im really apologetic . & im really sorry for making u feel hurt again and again . Im sorry but i have to let u go . I dare not to love you anymore , i can't give u that sense of security , i can't give u the comfort u need , i cant give u the unconditional love u yearn for . I know that you're very glad to be with her . & seeing you happy makes me happy too . Im really glad that you've found a girl to love , i bring nothing to you but pain and sorrows . Im sorry , the memories of you and me will forever be etched in my mind . I will never forget how good you treated me , how patient you were with my stubborness , how u loved me wholeheartedly . May god bless you with her . All the best with her . Imy .

" If you love someone , let him go , set him free , for he will be happier that way , in search for his own happiness . "

2010-04-04T06:19:00.001-07:00

Urgh , im so tired but someone forced me to post , oh well . Im still waiting for the pictures to get uploaded but it's so slow !! I dont know why .

Anyway went to study ytd w/ kor , went to T1 to buy my cake . Hehehehe , kor chose strawberry cake so i copied him , ahahahaha ! It's damndamndamn ohmygodawesome :D Stupid kor so good in math , maked me feel sososososo stupid luhr . D;

today went to QingMing , yeah , visited my late , grandpa , grandpa's mother and grandma's mother . (= Yeah . I miss my grandpa so much . It's been 11 years already . To those who smokes , please bear in mind the consequences . Even if you dont mind death , think about those people around you who care , who will do anything and give any sum of money just to save you from stroke or lung cancer etc . It isn't fair to them . What for spending a huge sum of money just to make your beloved ones grief and harm your own body . God has given all of us a life to live on this world , our parents gave birth to us . Every part of our body are created by our parents . Whether we like it or not , we must cherish it and not to self-harm . It's been eleven years .............

Anyway , going to celebrate yogen's birthday tml @ tampines . (= Yup . Thats about all now . Anyway , the pictures are taken last year in malacca :D

2010-03-31T05:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to

Missdearestsuperwonderfulfancyfulplayful KIEWLYNN :DDDD

Yeah She's awesome , though she srsly likes to bully me eh ); I know its been awhile since ive blogged a proper post . My emotions have been like a roller coaster ride , & yep i dont deny the fact that i have bad mood swings nowadays . So sorry if i've shouted @ anyone or neglected anyone yeah . & gosh i screwed my science test & got 2/10 for mathematics quiz which is like myohholyshyt . This feeling kinda sucks eh . I srsly need to buck up (; Quite glad with my CA1 which is 66% overall though i got E8 for math which pulled the whole damned thing down . & im so happy that i've owned charmaine by 1% ( yay me ! ) Wahahaha , speaking of charmaine chen i still owe her her precious school badge :O Gosh i think i've lost it eh ): Also , mr keeve for calling me when i was going to fall asleep on the bus to asked me if im alright . Laughs' ! Silly him .

I've nothing to say about netball though .

Well , Tomorrow is April Fools day ! Anyone who's going to / intending to prank me tml i'll srsly kick your #$^&*( , kidding (;

I wanna thank my dearest melodie who cheered me up , zoe jiejie , huiting , alynna for encouraging , kiewlynn & anning for caring me . Well i really have let u guys down a lot ); Im really veryvery sorry and im very apologetic . I srsly hate myself , sometimes i just find myself a drag ); Im so sorry ); I really felt like killing myself that day. Argh , what the freak .

Today had home economics for e first period . Had so-called-inspection on our class . (; Miss azlilah kept pinching edwin choo , so funny aye . The act went out well & was satisfied w/ it .
The whole lesson felt like dozing off , even when i talked to lynn she isnt listening !! Urgh ! ): Aahaha . Thought she was angry at me till she told me to talk to her .

Well , the class tee is going to be done (; So yah ;D

Lalalala , ending (;

I HEART CHARLOTTE , H.JIE, NETBALLERS, KEEVE , NICK , EDWIN , JING , SKY :D

2010-03-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

I constantly tell myself , i will not let jealousy overwhelm me .
Everything will be over . Just don't think about it . Before i even know it , i will feel completely numb towards this matter . She can give you the happiness i can't , bcos i do not have the ability to do so . I admit , i do detest her , but i don't deny that the fact that she's far off better with you . So now , disappear . Just disappear . I can't take another truth about this .

& , stop pestering me you bastard ! I dont care how the f- you feel . You are angry at me doesnt mean that you can show attitude to me . I have my own limits . You seriously watch it .
Vanish from my sight okay !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH , PEOPLE ARE JUST GETTING ON MY NERVES THESE DAYS !!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-20T23:25:00.001-07:00

Holidays are going to be over , like awws . D:

On tuesday went vivo w/ kor & watched Alice in Wonderland . & the white bunnaye was oh-so-cute . Alice was so awesome , the white queen was pretty , the red queen sucks /: Small head freako D: Went to toys'r us to play around . Saw my favourite spongebob and patrick :D:D HEHEHEHE . Though now i like miss bunny more bcos of , if you're close enough w/ me you should know why (; Kor keep bullying me like some shyt like that luhr ): Sob . Kor's guna get it from me one day .

On friday went to kor's house w/ yogen . Went to Leisure park to bowl . Kor bowled like some funny idiot luh . Who ask kor leg so long . Yogen was pro (: Went back and started raining . Both of them played chinese chess while i wandered off in my lalaland . Kidding . The rain stopped and we went swimming . yogen and kor was so funny luhhr .

Oh gosh , I dont even know what homework needs to be done . D: Gah . Tooodles . (:

哭过就好了,

2010-03-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

哭过就好了 ; Rachel Liang .

不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化慢慢不同
我不是生气只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说你会这麽做是我的错
哭过就好了
伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸著割舍
爱是为了拥抱为了牵手
不是为了争吵为了调头
哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了
哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了
越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方
哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

Lovely song :)

2010-03-10T04:01:00.000-08:00

Hehe , Student Leader's investiture is finally over , thank godness . Can wear my shinnaaaaye badge from now on :) Well , for this whole term im quite satisfied with my results and other stuffs . Looking back , I had improved tremendously in my results as compared to last year . Im much more happier this year as of compared to last year . (; Yep , Of course , those people brought colours to my life :DD

Edwin for always making stupid comments that made me laugh and sms-ed me when i was sososo bored D;

Little miss perfectionist melodie for always cheering me up during netball whenever im down . Im really pressurized and depressed those days . Netball can drive me into depression someday . It really will . Melodie always cheered me up and also talked to me when im feeling muchmuch better . (; If i hadnt had her , ive probably just broke down . Also , for going crazy w/ me & this char-mai-ne and going hyper . Love you lots melodie :DD

Not forgetting miss elegant kiewlynn who is always trying to bully me whenever she gets the chance . ( Grrr . ) Anyway , she's a really nice partner yeah but still very bully D: Ahahahah !

My dearest soul sister , hweejing for always making funny actions that make me laugh & always giving me advice on what items should i buy . Also , her comfort whenever i needed .

Tianning & Haini for always entertaining me when im bored or i got abandoned by SOMEBODEH . Laughs' ! (; Especially tianning fiancee , muacks muacks !

KEEVE CHIN WADDDDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAAAA for always making cold and sarcastic remarks then never failed to make me laugh . Cuz' its really pathetic eh . Thankyou for allowing me to share how i feel with you and always tried your very best to cheer me up though its just a small matter . Hehe . I know ive made you unhappy becuz of some reasons . Im really sorry . friends for 1234 years already ley , time really flies . & you still never change . Im rly glad you trusted me with your deepest secrets and allowing yourself to open up to me . you rock , my sockzxz manzxz ahahahaha stupid tomdickharry.

Of course nicholas ng . I know that recently we had some misunderstanding between each other but that's all cleared . Im really sorry , nicholas for hurting you so much bcos of this small tiff between the both of us . Thankyou for always providing me a listening ear and making me laugh when no one understood how i felt . You remembered what i've told you before and told me back what ive said to you back then . Thinking about it , it all made sense . Im really touched . Nicholas , i know you have your new good friends to hang out with now , but in my heart you're always my most loving di and little "boyfriend" to me . (;

Obviously last but not least , my MOST PRECIOUS , MOST DEAREST , MOST LOVABLE person . Yes , i did not forget about you . (; How can i forget about you my gosh . Han Jie ah han jie , ive known you through ups and downs , from your best to your very worst . You can even complete my sentences without me opening my mouth ;O What a telephathy we share . A BIGBIGBIGBIG THANKYOU to you for waiting for me practically almost everyday to accompany me back home and always cracking lame and silly jokes to me though it really makes u sound rather ridiculous . (; I really appreciate for all you had done . From helping me taking care of my belongings as im lazy to bring them with me , carrying my books cos my arms really ache all the way to comforting me . Yesterday you waited for me till 6.20pm till my netball finishes . I was aching all over , i felt a sense of sadness oevrwhelming me . Though ive really tried to hold back my tears , i just can't fake it to you that i'm really fine . Ive tried to smile and pretended that everything was alright though tears continued to roll down my cheeks . It was the most terrible day i had . Im really glad that you were by my side back then . It really gave me a sense of warmth , encouragement and a reason to smile then . You might not know it but just your prescence had made me felt secure and safe . Thankyou , for all you had done . Thankyou my big brother :D hehehe .

My life have so many wonderful peepo , how can i forget all of you (;
Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeros !

At the beginning with you ,

2010-03-08T04:21:00.000-08:00

Ah , im so immersed with this song . (; Reminds me of some sentimental values to me . It's a really lovely song . Had e-learning day today , which i slacked :D Yup . & oh i can't wait to go to school tomorrow ( not . )

At the Beginning ;
Richard Marx & Donna Lewis

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep goin' on
Starting out on a journey
life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning
With you

2010-03-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

Ytd soul sis , sky & kor went to my house to do hist. proj :D Met kor @ tampines and was late by an hour ;x opps . Did till very late but manage to complete most of it . Gave kor his MYUK wallet though im not sure if he likes it though .

Had MASS CIP today , met kor & was late again :D Train-ed to tanah merah and saw soul sista and my darling tianning (; Went to eunos geylang serai and camped at e overhead bridge . Tin was very heavy after an hour plus . After 2 hours , the tin was already going to be full .

Went to rest w/ kor & started collecting money again :D Walked back to eunos MRT station and saw haini , lynn , rongchuin and etc . Walked further down and saw my dearest tianning and priya mummy :D

Slacked . Helped soul sister to collect some coins . Went back to tanah merah and waited for an hour for the queue . Raised 165.20 dollars . hehe . Went to bugis to eat fish & co. w/ kor . Ordered fish and chips . Ate as fast as kor , ahahaha and therefore he had no chance to crictisize me for eating slowly . Was really hungry .

Now im waiting for my dinner . Gah , hungry ._.

2010-03-03T04:42:00.000-08:00

Thank god i passed literature and geography . Phew , was so worried yesterday .
Really glad that ive passed . Though ive screwed my mathematics and biology test :D
So yeah . Had SLi rehersal and got our shinyyyy badge , though we cant wear it till next wednesday .

I really must learn how to appreciate myself a little more and stop thinking so negatively about myself . D; I really need to change this thought .

Meow , lazy to post pictures . Will soon . ( not so soon . ) :D
toodles !

SLC.

2010-02-28T03:38:00.000-08:00

SLC was super awesome . Can see yandao dancing :D Shall not say who eh . * drools * However , the whole mood was spoilt yesterday .

I don't know why i feel so used and being treated like a spare tyre .

I have this very friend , named Alex* ( just using a fake name . )
I know him through a mutual friend of ours . He was friendly and we got along very well ever since i've helped him out with his confusion and problems e beginning of last year . From then on , he became my little brother . I treated him just like my own real brother . I gave my whole heart whenever i give him advices and also took care of him . It all came from nothing but my heart . He always came to me for advice , i never failed to listen to him though i was really tired and had a really bad day .

Of course , he always made me laugh when im in tears without fail , always listening to my problems too . I told him every single thing . Some that i did not even tell my dearest kor then . Once i told him , " I know someday u will forget about me as we move on , but i just wanna tell you that don't change for the way you are now , that's my wish . " He replied , " I wont forget you , i will still make space for you in my heart , and i wont change the hyper me i am now . " Im glad , and believed what he said .

Recently , i heard from a good friend of mine that he has someone he likes . I was speechless . I really wondered why , compared me to my good friend , is he more important than me ? Why didn't he told me but him ? These questions kept stucked in my head . I approached him and asked him indirectly . Even though i've hinted him that i knew about it long ago , he still lied to me , his sister . He lied to me . I was completely crushed .

Yes im disappointed in him for not telling me though im his sister and i've told every single thing to him . Morever , he lied to me . It really hurts me so much .

I dont blame him at all. I'm just destined to be left behind after one has gotten his/her happiness . This is not the first time i've lost a dear good friend . I've put in all my heart to care for all of them , now , they're just leaving me silently , without even remembering me . Of course , its not their fault , its my fault for being a lousy sister/goodfriend/etc .

If they don't even remember what we've been through together compared to someone whom they had just met , i don't see there's any point trying to confront them or anything (: I'm just a person who just likes to see other people's happiness and sit quietly one side , wishing them all the best .

I've gotten used to it . So will it be .

X-COUNTRY (;

2010-02-26T03:49:00.001-08:00

Today was the x-country around e esplanade :DD Wheee ! So fun yeah . Chiong w/ lynn and joey at first then huiting and melodie . After that they all overtook me D: So meanie ! Ahahaha ! Our class got 2nd for the cheering competition though its really hard to get the class getting cooperated .

Went out w/ kor to suntec & watched percy jackson , after tht kor kept doing some silly stuffs that made me laugh so much . Supeeeeeeer @sshole . D:

Lazy to post , mood was totally awesome & at the same time kinda sucked . Kor should know why . (; But im still glad and happy today .

2010-02-21T07:54:00.000-08:00

1. Think back 5 months ago, were you single?
Nopeeeeee .
2. Who can you blame for your bad mood today?
That B!tch and someone who had disappointed me badly.
3. How was your night last night?
No dream :D
4. How do you feel right now?
Sad .
5. Who were the first two people you heard this morning?
My mother and han jie :D
6. What are you listening to?
When im w/ you faber drive (;
7. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Duh of cos im so lovable ohoh hehehe .
8. Last thing you bought?
I paid for my taxi fare .
9. Are you a jealous person?
Yep .
10. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Nope , i cry easily .
11. Think a lot before you sleep?
I sleep away my troubles :D
12. What were you doing 12.30 this afternoon?
Telling this paul to hurry up while eating twister fries
& nuggest w/ lemon tea ahahaha !
13. Whats running through your mind right now?
I miss him .
14. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
yup . Nicholas :D
15. Do you like to cuddle or snuggle?
Whats that haa .
16. Is there anyone you wish to spend your time with right now?
Yep , its prettaye obvious its who isnt it (;
17. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Nope , i wanna be alone . Phone's off baby :D
18. Is your life like anything it was a year ago?
Nope , it's so different .
19. What time did you stay up till last night?
Erm , 1AM . Waiting for bi to sleep .
20. You can only drink one liquid in your life, what is it?
Milo (;
21. Have you lost contact with someone you didn't wish to lose?
Yep , a lot of people .
22. Who are your favourite people to talk to when your down?
Nicholas , charlene , paul , keeve , charlotte (:
23. Does anyone call you baby?
No eeeeeee !
24. Are you a patient person?
Ahahaha , depends on my mood .
25. What is the last thing you said out loud?
f- you upside down ! xD
26. Any plans for tomorrow?
Tomorrow got school lah bodoh .
27. What can't you wait for?
Friday friday <3
28. Would you go out in public looking like you do right now?
Yep , duh .
29. What's the worst way to say?
What the hell ?!?
30. 7 weeks from now, will you be in a relationship?
Ahahahaha :O Yes , with my nicholas , AHAHAHAHA !! kidding .
31. What do you carry with you all the time?
Purse , phone , necklace & watch .
32. Are you mean?
To those people i hate . * you know who you are * hehehe .
33. What holiday is your birthday closest to?
Let's see , National day i think .
34. What is the last thing you searched on google?
Piano sheet for a certain song .

2010-02-20T03:19:00.000-08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh miss bunny so cute i want !!!!! D:D: Hehehe . Somebodeh buy for me leh . ahahahaha ! Kidding .

I'm srsly obsessed w/ bunnies nowadays . Laughs' ! Those who know me well , you all should know why . (:(: Weekend seemed to dull and boring eh . So little homework . Gotta study for upcoming mathematics test ); @sshole . Just have no confidence in myself .

I don't know why , somebody has been kind of ignoring me nowadays . Maybe she's just stressed . Sigh . I will just leave her alone till she's fine . I dont blame her for ignoring me or treating me badly , but yeah , she has her own life . We're in different schools now , it was still alright last year , just felt that this year we're both drifiting apart . Not to mention her* , she dont really seemed to care about the two of us anymore . I really missed the times we three are together, even though we're separated by class . How i missed going to her* house and swim , how i missed going to her* house and cycle around the carpark , how i missed going to her* condo to play around at the carnival , how i missed attending both of their birthday parties . We used to talk hours on the phone , crying and laughing , now it's like we're just completely strangers . Why ? Why must reality be so cruel , I really don't wish to see it happen . I just feel like turning back to the time where we are in primay 3 . i really do .

Ahahaha !

2010-02-19T06:44:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since i blogged . Ahahaha , was so busy /: & Gosh , i flunked my quiz , how great is that . ); FUUSD math . Thankyous NICHOLAS NG yes NICHOLAS NGGGGGG ahahaha for always cheering me up yeah :D

Thankyous everyone for their lovely presents on valentine's day :D hehehe . & also thankyou to charmaine for the muffins & zoe for your cookie though it's a very belated one :D Love you jie (; P.s./ Charlene , your rose was damaged , ahahaha !! opps . No lah it came off . (; Fix it for me a time okay ! :D

On wed bought kor his cake . Ahahaha , just felt like doing something nice for awhile , and also for some reasons bah . Stupid him was so full , gahhhh !! Had me to eat the other one since i brought two . Got sick and slept the whole day

Thurs had nothing much . Didnt manage to complete my math assignment book . Sad ); Still sick and slept the whole day too . Laughs' . Today nothing much happened , just plain tired . hehehee .

Will update very soon :D

2010-02-13T05:03:00.000-08:00

hehehee , i love charlotte oh :D Bleh cute little girl .

Hey dearest , im sorry i've let you down . I'm just like that . I know you've been tolerating and pretend not to see anything all these while , I've truly neglected how u felt . ): I'm sorry for being such a flirt as you may think , i'm sorry for letting you down , i'm sorry for every wrong i had done . ): You're very very good to me , im so lousy ):

Gah , going to miss school ):

2010-02-12T05:06:00.000-08:00

Heyhey people ! (; Went to school and sat bus 10 . Siqi and yongxuan took the same bus as me . Chit chat and laughed :D Thankyous for all those who had given me valentine's present (; Really appreciate it , though im lazy to list out everybody cuz too many people to thank alr :D

Went to bugis w/ kor and celebrated valentine's together w/ him (; Really had a great time yeah . Played his arcade and watched valentine's day . hehe ! & yes i know it's $36 dollars my dear . Blur bunny . hehehe , left the receipt in the plastic bag .

Ma lao shi talked about being filial and good to our parents . I've just realised that i always lock myself up in my room , doing my own things and rarely ever talk to my mother . Even though she always buy for me dinner , lunch and never forget to give me money , I never once said a thankyou to her . Yet , she did not say anything . I really love my mother . I feel so guilty );
I wish that i can spend more time with her during chinese new year .

Kooooooooooooooooooooooor , don't be sad and cheer up okie :D

4 days ; 3rd month . (; ily .

2010-02-11T04:33:00.000-08:00

Hehe , awwws , what a bunch of adorable secondary ones . I really miss last year you know ); However 2010 is guna be awesome anyway ! (; Ahahahaha !

Had geography and literature . Went outside the gym and sat in a circle . Some people acted in a scene . ((; Sat w/ tianning and little lengwan . Talked to soul sister about some issues . Had recess , had english . Was slacking all the way even though there's a test tomorrow (; I effing screwed my science mock test /: ahahaha ! & of cos i also screwed my math quiz . Argh crap manzxz .

Not going to go back rss tomorrow as i wouldn't be free . Sorry aye ); I really wish to but cant :D
Missing all e juniors and teachers ! <3

P.s./ Keeve , nick , edwin and alynna , dont kill me if u see this , it's just so adorable (;

Baby , don't forget about tomorrow (;

2010-02-10T04:40:00.000-08:00

I think after this week i will be able to catch up with my sleep and also to revise for all the subjects im weak in . Yes , finally some break . I'm so looking forward to friday (; Wheeeeeeeeeeeee !

Short post as im just too tired .

2010-02-08T03:58:00.000-08:00

Hehe ! Went out w/ charlotte to Pasir ris today ;D Couldn't wait for the school to finish lah :@ Every single second was looking at the clock and hoped that time would fly :D Went to whitesands and changed . Ate @ subway and talked and talked . Bus-ed to ehub and took neoprints there :DD So awesome lah ! But i dont have the scanner w/ me so can't scan in , sob ! The neoprint was supeeeeeeeer nice alright ! hehehe ! Walked to pasir ris park and played around there :DD Charlotte is still as cute as eveeeeeeeeeeeeer :DD Ahahahah ! <3 I love her lots alright ! Really had fun with her today . Muacks , i love you bestie ! Though sometimes i may neglect you , you had never forgotten about me . Hehe ! LOVE YOU !

& another thing , yes i agree that for the past few weeks , as soon as the east zone competition started i've been having hectic week one after another and therefore neglecting lots of people like alynna , charlotte , annabel , hweejing , nick and especially han jie .

I'm so sorry that i've been so busy till i dont even realise that i've srsly neglected some of you . Im really sorraye ): Han Jie , thankyou so much for trying to understand what i'm going through and you know sometimes i tend to be quiet in class , i'm really really very tired . Of course , you never failed to notice and always find ways to cheer me up (; Hehe . I'm really sorry for somehow neglecting you , you know you will always have a place in my heart even though it isnt big , Laughs' ! (; Yesyes , stay cute and nonsensical alright , ahahaha !

BALLZ . I LOVE CHARLOTTE GOH YUEN JE :D
xoxo (!)

2010-02-07T05:31:00.000-08:00

Hehe . Annabel came to my house today and baked cookies ! Yesyes , it was her first baking experience so on and so forth , laughs' ! (; She is super hyper alright ! It was quite a success , the cookies are all so prettaye and hawt like me :D ahahaha kidding !

Sat down with her in the room and talked about all sorts of things . Asked her which clothings should i wear on valentine's day . And surprisingly , she was able to read my mind . & from there on , the conversation triggered (; Told her about how i was being crushed down again and again by those hurtful words and was afraid to voice out to them . She said that my body is in proportion and i wasn't fat . Yes i wasn't convinced at first but she said that everything was really in proportion , my hips , my bust , my butt , my legs . It's like , i really didnt notice till she told me ((; & Annabel ah ! Chinese new year clothing , Laughs' ! Well she introduced me to " when im with you " by Faber drive . It's really awesome :D (!) Well though im still very indecisive but i guess i've sorted out my messed up feeling alr (;

Thankyous annabel , <3
ahahahha ! (;

2010-02-05T04:28:00.001-08:00

Luckily there was you by my side . My hands were trembling , and my heartbeat is beating furiously . If it weren't for u , i didnt know what i might get into or what to do . Thankyou (;

Before netball was hyper-ing with alynna , siqi , zoe , lynn , jia yi and an ning . Hehe . Though i must admit we did make a lot of noise xD Bleh .

So there's netball today and we had bonding session with the secondary ones . Awws , all are so cute and innocent . Before netball training played street netball after that ran ten rounds . Did passes and then the lightning alert sounded . We went to the foyer and played guess the leader and splat (; Went home @ 5pm and had piano .

Nothing much happened .

2010-02-04T04:25:00.000-08:00

Had health check-up today . talked to melodie , keeve and edwin as i was srsly bored to death luh . Crapped around with melodie , laughs' ! (; Went back to class and had literature . Honestly , im not really paying attention and was talking to lynn via our " MSN chatbox " (; hehehe .

Had recess with my dearest dearest DEAREST kor . Laughs' ! Even though he doesnt wanna eat i still forced him all the way to e canteen . Stupid idiot luhr huhr :D Like meow im so full after eating and passed some food to him to complete for me & he's still eating sushi ! ._. @sshole man .

Told kor to bring a container for me as im so lazy to bring it to school * hush ! * giggles ! Had home economics and baked cookies again . Like whoa this is like the 123456th time i'm baking cookies . But well it was fun and delicious :D Had english and @ 12pm left the classroom and went down . (;

Took bus to dunman sec and played against prc . Though we didn't win , was glad that we made a big leap of improvement :D Coach was satisfied (; Yipee we made coach happie , laughs' ! & i'm still feeling a sense of guilt having to lose that one ball in my hand . Sigh ); Although coach is laughing at my action i still feel guilty . Gah . Took bus 28 to tampines and had mac w/ the netballers . They were playing black magic all the way and it took quite a long time before hui ting and zoe to figure out the trick . (; Laughs' ! Lynn was chewing ice and shooting at everyone ._. Saw somebody or should i say two familiar faces , yup . Shall not mention the name .

Gaaaaaaaah , Sleeeep sleeeep , Me so tired . Me want pillow . );

2010-02-03T05:11:00.000-08:00

In the morning met kor @ tampines interchange at 7.30 plus ( you're late by a few mins ! ) & went to tampines interchange mac . Kor ate his big breakfast while i did my history (: After that kept rushing through all those unfinished homework . Was oh so tiring luhr huhr .

Had literature and did characterisation , had history and completed the mindmap . :D Was angry at kor but the anger gradually dissolved into thin air ; just like that . Hehe . Gave little nicholas ng his chocolate and continued w/ my geog and went for recess . ate with kor and went back to have geog . Oh my god , it's killing me . 3 humanities in a day ? Ohmymeow . hehehe . Had bio and partnered w/ keeve . Wuz talking about all sorts of crap and especially about his midnight luhr . Gossiped about some things too (; Wasn't even paying attention at all , kept asking keeve for help , Laughs' ! Had assembly and sec 2 streaming talk , mygod my legs are so numb ! ): Hehe . Took bus 10 back w/ kor and studied . Wheeee !

9 MORE DAYS AND COUNTING GAH !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KHAI SHEEN AND JIAOLIAN ; COACH ! :D
we promise to give our best shot & our 100% tomorrow . I hope we won't let you down ! (;

2010-02-02T04:56:00.000-08:00

Today was oh so tiring luhr huhr . Had physics and chemistry with ah jing ! :D Nick came to join us cos he had forgotten to bring his file i think . I was lighting up the burnsen burner but it could not be lit up . Nick took the bunsen burner out of my hands and lighted for us . Tio scolded by mrs tan . Gah ! We boiled the damned wax and ours was like different from the other groups luhh . When we were heating the wax there was this weird sound and scared me and jing luh . The rest turned yellow but ours turned into white liquid /; Later i broke the test tube ): Mrs tan was kind enough to forgive me , ahahaha laughs ! Asked jing and nick on some suggestions on some matters :DD Both chose the same thing , guess i had to go w/ their decision (; Had netball and waited for kor to finish his math club . Took bus 14 home with him .

Have some items that i havent buy yet , sob . Omg . 12345678910 more days /: I wish east zone can be over soon ):

2010-02-01T04:12:00.000-08:00

Awwws it's monday again /: It's hell boring uhh ); Went to school early as i was supeeeer bored . Wydianny messaged me saying that she isnt going to school today as she had fever . Hehe . Went to parade square w/ kor and alynna and charmaine came after that . (;

Had ICT & bullied charmaine chen polar bear . Laughs' ! I'm not gunaa say what i had "threatened" her luhr hur :D Later she come beat me * runs ! * Heeehees , hi five melodie :DD
Had a good laugh at charmaine ;P * coughs ! * Had maths and kept asking lynn for help /: I srsly dont wanna end up in remedial ! * SCREEEEAMS!! * Sob , I wuna cry out loud manzxz ): Why is there even such thing as mathematics . D: Gah !

Recess stayed in class w/ kor . Ziwei & tianning fiancee came disturb me . Heehees ! History was boring , Laughs' ! During english lesson doddled on a piece of paper w/ lynn . We dont even know the paper flew away /: Anyway it was just some nonsensical crap luhr huhr :D Did vocab and past the stupid sword around . Laughs' ! Slacked the whole period during higher chinese , gotten 0/20 for my practice worksheet teeheees ! sorry uhh , i never learn );

Tianning , haini and nu aye jio me go parkway to shop with them but i prefer shopping alone . Therefore went to T1 and bought gifts for kor , charlotte , aunt & of cos myself ! Heehees !
Took bus 10 back and find kor and took bus 14 with him :DD

Time flies :O hehe :D

2010-01-31T03:05:00.000-08:00

Hehe wheeee aint it cuteeeeeeeeeeeee :D hehehe ! Wahahaha the bunny family :D ahahahah ! Omgosh i havent even done my homework yet . Crapzxz . Better get started /:

2010-01-29T04:55:00.000-08:00

Hey , i'm sorry for crying so hard and not letting anyone know what happened . Thankyous to charlene and heyse for trying to cheer me up and also alynna and an ning for the concern . I'm fine now so don't worry okie =) I'm sorry to make you all worry . /:

Boringboring day D:

2010-01-28T05:20:00.000-08:00

Boring day D: We lost the match terribly . ): Let's foward it alright .

After the tournament went to simei w/ dearest bwanana , made her laugh her dumb head off . ahahaha ! Went to give my phone for servicing , after that went to precious thots & look at the stuffs there . :D Thought of buying something for someone as i had lost the keychain that he had given me . Feeling super guilty alrightzxz . Stupid alynna kept making me so indecisive on which one should i buy . In the end she helped me chose this . hehe . Took MRT back to tampines and almost pang seh-ed bwanana , Laughs' ! Ahahaha ! Yeah , went to TS to see if there is show luo's latest album there . Browsed around . She took bus 10 home while i took 291 . Oh so tired . After reaching home i realised that kor asked jing to call me manymany times . So sorry for not informing you i was going to shopshop awhile .

Stop with your bitching , whore . /:
Bwanana cheer up ! :D

我不知不觉地被你打动了心。

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2010-01-27T02:14:00.000-08:00

Today went to school early but didnt went for the meeting ;D Laughs' ! Instead , i accompanied kor , jing , sky and ziwei . Ahhh , im in sooooooo deeeeep trouble . Hehe . Was so pissed as zhangxin didn't bring tomato ): Luckily kind haini gave her the extra tomato :D Hehe ! I swear that im not going to eat a whole chicken ever again , It's seriously gross ! EEEEEEEK ! Baked a chocolate cake and sphagetti . Didn't eat them , it looks too scary . Did practical during miss alexis lesson and followed by FTCT . Fierce teacher came in and scolded zizhen , poor thing ):

Stayed back till 4.15 for the auditions . Kor ate while i went around the school w/ jiayi and heyse . Did a task for Mr sara and went to canteen to play thumbthumb w/ delia too . Went to the school's deserted place and practiced . Went to the dance studio and waited for 2/6 to finish . So nervous D: We did well and already gave our best :D So yup , Bleh .

Kor and nick was waiting for me . Took bus 10 back to tampines :D Alynna is so boomz . LOL . Tomorrow is east zone again , nooooooooo !!

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Do you know how it feels like to be dragged to go to somewhere where you dont wanna go , you dread of going , and even if u go , you will be no use at all .

Do you know how it feels like wanting to change yourself so badly but you arent given a chance to prove to the world saying , " no world , you are wrong . "

Do you know how it feels like keep pushing yourself to do something when in actual fact you really can't stand the treatment ?

Do you know how it feels like forcing yourself to prove everyone wrong when deep down inside your heart you know you can't do it .

Don't you ever know what it feels like being like this ?

I've seriously thought through about it for manymany months . Of course there are reasons to why i dont wanna leave the team . How does he think of me if i quit , how am i going to stay strong , how am i going to cope w/ the change and lots more . These pros and cons kept flashing through my mind and it seriously often made me breakdown and cry when no one's looking .

But i've really decided what i really want in my life .
I'm leaving the netball team .

Wadda -

2010-01-26T04:22:00.000-08:00

It seemed like 1234567 days that i hadn't eat a proper meal . Like f- . I don't feel hungry anyway , dont know why either . It's really been awhile ever since i wanted to do achieve something so strongly .

I always feel that i'm being good enough , i always felt compared w/ others esp. being w. him . I just can't help it you know ); In actual fact you know u arent that bad , but thinking about the things he said made me feel so lousy . I am really trying my very best to prove him wrong , i really do . It just makes me feel so stressed sometimes and i dont know what to do . I just keep feeling that im not good enough , im not good at all . Maybe i'm just trying to be someone that im not . Sigh ); It's just a wish that cant come true . I'm just not that kind of person .

Well enough of blabberings , hehe . Had P.E. lesson & Math and wuz oh so boring /: Stayed in class to finish some of my theroy revision , after that had ATS (; felt that im being treated like some kind of spare tyre . sigh . im so used to it already .

After that got to skip chinese and science , like wheeeee ! I loveeeeed it when i saw the look on ma lao shi's face , ahahaha ! I know she's pissed , bleh . Changed into our jerseys and FBTs and took bus 12 to dunman secondary (;

The match wuz great but we lost (; hahaha . I'm happy cos coach said that we improved a lot . :D

Saw naomi , jinjin , gengye , shantian and enru there (; * cough cough * , someone became super haaaaaawt woh , sexaaaayeeee :D ahahahah ! Coach spon us taxi to go back to temasek and went to find kor . Took bus 10 back and reached home .

Without bathing i took bus to my grandmother's house to take the PSP for nick and walked back . Enjoyed the scenery , ahh , sunset (; Reached home , bathed and now here i am . ahahahah laughs' !

end :D

Demoralised .

2010-01-24T05:51:00.000-08:00

Jiayi went to my house today and sang sang sang , laughs ! (; Had fun w/ her today .
Chickeeeeeeeeeen , i haven't do homework yet ); Crapzxz .

Tues and Thursday we're going to have our east zone tournament , Sigh . o.o & the first match is againist AHS . Win liao loh , we become holy liao . Total ownage ;x Nevermind , will try our best not to get zero for the score :D & hope that coach doesnt scream her bloody head off );

Timetable for next week -
MONDAY - Self practice .
TUESDAY - EAST ZONE .
WEDNESDAY - Self practice / Audition .
THURSDAY - EAST ZONE .
FRIDAY - freeeeeeeeeeee (!)

I'm really glad that i had my dearest soul sister back . It was partly my fault too , I'm so sorry soul sis ): Hope you are still well :D

Had been demoralised so badly till i dont even know how to face him . What alynna said is right .
Well , maybe i should avoid him these few days . Ouch /:

Alynna , will talk to you tomorrow yeah :D
& charlotte , please spell your ANGELS correctly :DD Laughs' ! (;

Stop saying im pretty cos im not , im fat and ugly .

2010-01-22T18:48:00.000-08:00

This movie seems nice ;D Can't wait to go out w/ my besties to watch w/ them ! (: Didn't get to go out w/ charlotte and huimin much during e december holidays as i was mostly overseas most of e time ); Now have to wait till term break , Gah ! I miss them so much ):

Sorry charlotte for neglecting you these days , im so sorry . It's just that im just not in a good mood to talk to anyone ); BFFs forever yeah ? Muaaaaaaacks ! hahahah !

Speaking of valentine's day , wonder how this year's will be like . Laughs' ! Well , Don't really look forward to it that much anymore as something's are missing . Oh well , life still has to go on . At least i still have charlotte and others by my side .

Those who stuck w/ you till the end are true friends .

Pissed ,

2010-01-21T03:13:00.000-08:00

Everything changes through time ,

Went to school as usual . Kor came to the parade square and accompanied me since alynna wasn't here . Awws i feel lonely as i dont wanna be surrounded by a bunch of you know :D

Had our cyber wellness talk . Got lost w/ melodie , charmaine and wydianny as we're busy chit chatting away :D Had recess and had bio (: After that was some leadership thingy but we made hell lotsa noise especially lynn . I'm just kidding :D

After school went to eastwood w/ kor and shared ice cream . Stupid dumb weather , Don't know why i feel like eating ice cream every now and then . Laughs ! Accompanied kor to bedok and took back again . Went for the leadership workshop and was super fun despite the fact that many of our moods had been spoiled and crushed by a certain someone .

I really can't believe what's happening . It seemed that everything was so peaceful and i didnt especially hated anyone . Ever since the beginning of the year , many people changed .

So what if you have a boyfriend ? It's your boyfriend who is possessive . If you aren't happy you can just confront me and not hide alright ! What's wrong w/ her talking to me , to other of her good friends ? What is there to get angry at ? I seriously cannot stand you ever since the beginning of this year but i kept quiet cause i knew that she loves you a lot . I saved your pride , yet you just kept making her feel like she's some kind of FUCKING AUTOMATIC ROBOT ?!? Puh-lease , just because she always forgives you doesnt mean that you have to take advantage of her . Is bloody your fault that you cannot control your emotions , why the hell do you even let it on your own girlfriend ?!

What's worse , when i told her about solutions and such she just doesnt wanna listen and kept thinking " HE IS RIGHT " Hello girl , please wake up and reflect !! He's the one who's in the wrong and making u suffer , can't you have the bloody backbone to stand up for yourself ?!? The guy doesnt really love you if he doesnt treat you w/ respect okay !! So what if he's sweet ? So what if he's caring ? I dont see him caring about how u feel everytime . It's just a plain white lie you're making to yourself my dear .

I want to cut off all ties w/ you is i wanna make it very clear , that it's either me or your boyfriend . You have bloody made up your mind and chose your boyfriend between us , the good friends . Why must we even stick w/ you now ? Like hey , we have emotions too . Even though i may appear very cold and firm , did you even know that i actually burst into tears when i saw what you had written to me ?! Yes , I do cry , not only you !!

This is your decision , deal with it . Don't come running back to us anymore since u dont need us . He doesn't like you being with us , like as if we're guna poison you or what ?! We didnt mislead you , neither did we ill treated you , i dont see any excuse breaking ties w/ us . It's very clear that u chose him . You don't have to follow him whatever he says . You effing must have a MIND OF YOUR OWN !! You aint backbone-less , i dont wanna say anything anymore . It's either him , or us .

Ahhhhh , i'm dead beat . As you can see im very depressed and also at the same time furious . Thankyous to charlene , yongxuan , alynna , nicholas ng for staying w/ me by my side when i was down . (=

P.s./ Nick , dont ever judge a book by it's cover again .

2010-01-20T03:34:00.000-08:00

OMG THIS WALLET IS LIKE DAMN OMGZXZ BLOODY NICE ! AHAHAHA ! I like ozozosac's wallet more than myuk , dont know why (; Bwanana likes MYUK more . She says that ozozosac is too princess-ey or classy , hehe . Don't know her lah !

Han Jie was actually late today and had to take taxi to school . Laughs' ! What a pig , overslept siols ! Heritage trail was fun (; went to changi museum , battlebox & kranji memorial cemetry . Lalalas . So tired . After that went to eat mac w/ kor , sky and soul sis (; Went to make up piano lesson and felt good about it :D I'm getting there ! :D wohoho !

Tomorrow's going to so boring /: kidding ! Muack muack , ending post :D

Workshop & Netball

2010-01-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

Went to workshop yesterday and was seriously hyper , thanks to stupid bwanana lah . ahahah !

After the workshop took the same bus as yongxuan and azuri . Talktalktalktalk and yeah yongxuan just talks to me like im some kind of little 5 year old girl ? hahaha ! Kidding .

I hate netball . Seriously /: Sigh . I'm so tired and blanked out now and i dont know what to post .

Lastly , I wanna say sorry to my kor for neglecting you these few days . I know everytime when you say , " it's ok " I really can feel that , deep down you're actually sad cause i can't accompany you . Yes i want to but i can't . I'm really sorry ):

& you , you are seriously a bitch . you've really shown your true colors to me . Total bitch alright ?! I should've listened to alynna ): f- you ):

Lalala .

2010-01-16T04:58:00.000-08:00

I just realised that my hair is actually brown under the sun & my eyes are brown too if you observe closely (: Cool , I have my father's eyes :D

Had a boringboring day , or should i say , I'm dead beat . Had ballet and piano , didn't went for netball as i felt feverish . As i had already missed a lot of lessons for ballet and piano , i've decided to force myself to go . Unfortunately , I got lots of scoldings from the piano teacher . Awws ):

Well , Doing IPT survey now (; Next week is guna be dead tiring and i can't accompany my kor much anymore . Things are different now , I have to be strong and firm on my own . I can't always rely on others , I really can't . I ain't weak alright :D

Leaving someone hurts ,

2010-01-15T03:10:00.000-08:00

My heart is being broken like a shattered glass , tears flowing uncontrollably from my eyes .
Before i know it , you're gone ; just like that .

Today , went to school as usual & it was Miss azlilah's birthday (: Yep . Nicholas told me yesterday and told me to keep it a secret . The class gave her a surprise when she came in for alive lesson . :D

After school stayed back for netball for awhile . Kor was busy w/ his stuffs and neglected me today . It's okay i understand (: see im so understanding ! Laughs ! Kidding .

Went to bubbletea shop w/ miss anning toilet bowl , miss charmaine polar bear , & elegant kiew lynn :D Walk walk there and saw heyse and jiayi (: We bought our bubbletea and sat down at the void deck as it is windy there . Played chuckie chuckie and saw nicholas boyf. hahahah ! We walked back and lynn almost fell , an ning and jiayi were playing with the leaves o.o

Saw alynna and zoe and borrowed PE shirt and short from alynna . & then i've realised that i still needed a sports shoe to train . Therefore had to ask kor for his shoe . His stupid shoe is too big lah , big foot -.- So i had to train w/ my school shoes and kept hiding it from coach ._. Left early as i've got something on .

Tomorrow there's training somewhere outside bedok view or something . Dang . I'm seriously to hate netball . You bloody bytch, you think you big fuck is it . You think i'm scared of your crooked wrinkled eyes and your booming voice ? Oh puh-lease alright . You've got your sec ones so what ? You said you don't need us , well i can just walk straight off court and go home alright . I'm staying bcuz if i leave i'll be leaving the team . If i aren't any student leader i'll definitely shout back at you . Argh ! & I'm seriously thinking that some people have serious attitude problems on court . Oh well /:

Well for some reasons i just can't stop crying from the moment kor left me at the tampines interchange till now . Having to know that someone is going overseas for more than a year seriously scares me . Who am i going to turn to when im down now ? Who am i going to crap w/ when i'm bored ? Who am i going to find when no one else listens and believes me ? I'm slipping into depression all over again . Reality is cruel . Why ?

I know i must learn how to let go but i just can't . I know i should be a model for some people but even know i couldn't even control my own emotions . It's too overwhelming . I'm sorry .

2010-01-14T06:56:00.000-08:00

Hehe , im so adorable ain't i (: Okay I'm kidding :D

Today is a thursday which means i have to stay back for higher chinese , crap ): I dont like the teacher . Sob .

Had geography , science , english , math and literature today too . Geography was okay , surprisingly so was science . I was owned by my very first math quiz ): I wanna cry . Booohoo !
Literature sucked ): Hahaha ! Shall not elaborate .

Had higher chinese and read the newspaper article thingy about the mini sized model food . Ma lao shi was like , " 我感到很意外，因为书慧都是在我的班上常被我批评的一个人，但读报表现比较好。“ So she's fuckingly admiting that she always pick on me lahr ): I hate you manzxz . Sob , why do you have to teach me again !

Kor waited me to finish higher chinese and went back home together (:
Once i had reached home i lay on the bed flat and slept /: Gah ! I'm so tired . Kor called me and i woke up .

Next week i'm going to have leadership training program thingy . Oh god . Help !

Stomache !

2010-01-13T00:39:00.000-08:00

Stupid nicholas out of a sudden called me in MSN yesterday . Made me laugh like hell luhr . :D Giant hamster rolling around .

Today started school at 9AM & waited for bwanana to come and went to class . Had home economics and presented our powerpoint slides . Although i must admit i'm alittle pissed with one of the group member for not contributing anything , I shall not say anything this time (=
I'm so kind ain't i (:

After recess had geography . Chased nicholas around for hitting me so hard ): Went back to our old sitting arrangement and started playing again . Heehees . Lynn bullied rong chuin while i bullied nicholas . Drew on nick's hand and paper . He daringly stepped on my shoe and i stepped back . Lynn stepped nicholas' leg too . Ahahaha ! Nick kept playing w/ his bubble and in the end the saliva dropped onto the paper . He touched it and smear it on my damn uniform ! Argh ! Of course i scolded him and he wuz like , " I'm your boyfriend leh , can lah " Wha lao , you're guna get it sooner or later /: Stupid 2nd boyfriend ! Grr !

Mrs govind gave me a get well card like dont know for what reason . Haha ! (; Yep .

Had Biology w/ miss lim and the same things happened again . Shall not elaborate much (=

After school went to eastwood to buy ice cream w/ jiayi , alynna , charmaine and heyse . We walked there as we gossiped (: Now i'm crying in pain ( literally ) , Oh gawd , i shouldn't have eaten chocolate ice cream ): Someone please help me .

To be continued =.=

2010-01-12T04:47:00.000-08:00

Promise?

Love me. Hug me. Remember me. Promise?
Call my name. Be my friend. Don't leave me. Promise?
Don't hurt me. Protect me. Comfort me. Promise?
Don't turn your back on me. Don't ignore me. Be happy for me. Promise?
Move on without me. Forget me. Be happy even if it hurts me. Promise?
Let go of me. Fall in love again. Don't come back for me. ...Promise?

Miss kiew kiew .

2010-01-11T03:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah i know my hair is kinda screwed that time . Crazy lynn went to take photos when she's bored . Wha , i do miss the sitting arrangement ); I miss ah nick and rong chuin as well as those two irritating jackass behind us (;

Well , this post is kinda dedicated to lynn (;

How i remembered lynn kept teasing me about all sorts of things and kept scolding me just to make fun of it . She used to kept taking my handphone and snap photos of the class out of boredom . Woah , from once enemies becoming a good friend . After meeting her , i guess she isn't a bad person after all .

I did not manage to be good friends w/ her during primary school but i did last year . Well , we both have differences but managed to cope with it eventually . All the inner feelings i have had always been shared with her and she's always the first one or the only one to know how i felt when my other darlings arent around .

Well , it's the year 2010 and we're still partners . Though she seems to be somewhat quiet and not as noisy as last year , i know that she's still very playful but however helpful towards me .
I never got a chance to say a gratitude towards her . Now , I really want to say a , " thankyou , lynn " to her even though she might not read this post , laughs ' ! (;

I'm glad that i met you and you seriously taught me strictly for math while i taught you english . Hahahah ! Well , Cya on wednesday miss elegant :D

Happy birthday to you ,

2010-01-10T04:30:00.000-08:00

Starting off , I wanna wish a certain someone a very happy birthday :D Yes i did not forget your birthday , I dont know will you still remember me . But ah , who cares (; Happy birthday , Yi Kuan :D

I did all my homework except for home economics , which is due on wednesday (; For now waiting for Kor to come back and chat w/ me . How bored . Keeve and charlene are bathing ( NOT TOGETHER ) , & alynna is busy w/ stuffs ? Boohoooo no one cares about me anymore . I'm kidding !

I'm still thinking what to buy for valentine's day this year . Of course i cannot forget my dearest 7 years bestie charlotte , my siao bwanana alynna , my cutest chubbiest nicholas ng , Hweejing soul sister , My kors ( william , yongxuan & Han Jie ) & some other people like charlene too (:

Man im going bankcrupt soon . & I'm freaking scared of being tickled or anything that is ticklish . Just now my mother helped me to apply cream on my leg and it wuz effing ticklish till i rofl literally alright ! ): Tan han jie you better dont do it too or i'll smack your buttock ! hahahah !

Faster recover leg ): sob .

2010-01-08T05:06:00.000-08:00

Pictures of the past ,

I really don't know what's bothering you . If you're angry at me , I'm really sorry alright . You always make me so worried you know or not . Or perhaps , you just dont want me anymore . );

Went to have lunch w/ jing , sky and kor @ bedok . Had a tiff but wuz settled after that . Saw Alvin tay on the MRT * Ahem * , & Crystal daughter at tampines popular .

And , I'm given a 1 week M.C. off from any sports ): Awws . I behave so weirdly right now . I sometimes do wanna cry but no tears are coming out anymore . I just can't seem to get them out of me . Those emotions are just being stucked in me and unable to let it out . This is it , my heart had turned cold and numb . Someday i just might disappear . /: Someone please tell me , How ? All these ups and downs are seriously driving me crazy . I've been turned into a good girl ever since the start of 2010 for don't know what reason . I feel like a complete different person now . Don't know if it's good or not .

I feel so horrible now , feel so useless .

For all those sad memories being put behind , the wonders behind it are all , " It could have been . "

2010-01-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

Heehees , i sprained my ankle during netball /: crap . I wuz so weak after running and need to do passes and fell . Whee ! ( not ) Alynna cried ); Cheer up alright bwnana ! So Yi Jun senior sent me home , Thankyous so much yi jun :D hehe . Changed sits w/ nu aye and lengwan . Collected blue contact lens from celeste , so nice right ! (;

Talking on the phone w/ alynna , so lazy to update , will update soon :D

Confused ,

2010-01-01T04:35:00.000-08:00

Back to the basics ,

Yes , i missed how we just met each other , how we used to laugh our heads off without getting mad at each other everytime we talk .

I admit that i am a little way too emotional and stubborn . I've really tried to control all these , but you kept giving me reasons to explode everytime . In the end , im always the one giving in to you . I pretended that nothing happened and everything's alright but deep down inside , i'm actually very very hurt sometimes .

Yes she's my good friend , but sometimes you can't help but to think about what happened in the past .

I'm really tired of all these , i really do . This is where i draw the line . I cannot take it anymore . I have my own limits and i've been pretending all along that im alright to make you realise what's wrong and let you change . I had given you enough time , enough patience .

I've really tried to smile when im in tears , tried to control my anger whenever you said something wrong , tried to forget everything about the past , tried everything just to be someone that isn't me .

i've changed just for you , can't you see ?

FLYING BACK TO HOME SWEET HOME !

2009-12-29T20:36:00.000-08:00

I'M FLYING BACK TOMORROW !! (; TEEHEES ! I know u all miss me right... you miss me right.... LOL . kidding . hahahah ! So i wont be online . Will message all of you when i come back lah ! Just bought this beautiful dress , OMG :D I love it like shitzxz (; And bought Jesse Mccartney's profile card <3>

Miss all of you , but first , i wanna finish up all my homework first if not i will be dead ._.

So, lalala ! Byebye USA , Hello home sweet home ! MUAAAAAAAAAAAACKS !

Pissed

2009-12-28T19:12:00.001-08:00

Don't feel like posting today cuz' im feeling pissed .
Will update tomorrow .

p.s./ fuck you racist !!

L.A.

2009-12-25T21:11:00.000-08:00

This internet connection is slow man . Got lots of nice pictures but can't upload ! Grr... Bought something for kor & charlotte today (; Still finding for Alynna and others oh .

Went to hollywood & saw spongebob , elmo , michael jackson ey ! hehe . A lot of others too :D Yepyep . All man in costumes lah duh ! Laughs ! whaaaaaa (; Currently in Los Angeles five star hotel ey :D hehe , not bad woh . Curse internet for being so slow ._.

I WANT WATCH ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNKS TWO :D:D I love theodore manzxz , he's awesome ! & , his voice is actually Jesse Mccartney's , OMG :DD ! Theodore i love you ! LOL .

Sob , I'm super exhausted now ); yupyup . lalala .

P.s./ I hate you , fuck you manzxz .
You made me so miserable .

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

2009-12-24T14:27:00.000-08:00

Merry christmas to everyone !

Went to seaworld and legoland . (; hehe .

Seaworld wuz cool aye . Got lots of dolphin and whales . Soul sis's favourite . ;)

Well , Merry christmas :D Enjoy the rest of the day ! Don't feel like posting much today . :D

Tags Replies :

Angel : Yeah luo zhixiang is super cute ;)
JINJIN : Hello jin ! ;D
Enru : LOVEEEEEEER !! :D of course i remember you !
Alynnie : Influence my ass man , He's just natural in that ;D no need you
come kpo woh .
Ya lah will de lah :D
Keeve : Yupp i did . Yeah i miss you too . );

Short & sweet ,

2009-12-22T10:05:00.000-08:00

Went to downtown & zoo yesterday . Went to forever 21 and bought this lovely white dress , super nice . Saving it for valentine's day oh ;) Hehe ! Bought another nike sports shoe , 2 aeropostale tees . Yupp , all branded wohh , aisey . Laughs ! Anyone want me to buy any branded stuff here ? It's much cheaper than in singapore , but duh you have to pay me back when i come back hor !

Mummy bought her coach wallet and bought my aunt a blue dinner dress ;)

Went to the zoo the following day (; Their zoo quite small aye , singapore one is much better . However , overall it was good ! The guides were friendly yeah . Went to the reptile section and there's so manymany snakie snakie crawling around , eeeeek ! I wuz looking closely at this glass panel . Inside , lies a humongous snake . I wuz looking at it very closely and my mother suddenly just tapped me . I screamed and everyone's attention wuz being focused on me . Embarrsing ._.

This reminds me the time when i went Bugis w/ charlotte , ( Ahem charlotte you should know ! ) Yep . After coming out of the section i saw this peacock running around . hehehe . Obviously i chased it around , so cute aye the peacock .

Went to shop again and bought a light pink shirt & a Black jacket . Wanted e pink one but it isnt as nice as e black . Bought more bangles and a spongebob notebook ;D

Today i'm just here to slack e whole day , tml will be going out again (;

Favourite picture of the day : hehehehe .\

Chasing peacock . bleh

Missing you baby,

2009-12-19T16:16:00.000-08:00

Baby , you're contagious ,

Artist: Boys Like Girls

Song: Contagious

Album: Love Drunk

I'm flying down the fast lane

Doing 95, 90 things on my brain

Dunno where the hell I'm goin',

but I'm going after you

I'm jumping on the last train

Got this crazy kind of feeling that I can't explain

Dunno know where the hell I'm goin',

but I'm going after you

And I know you think I'm crazy

And I dress up like I'm poor

I don't do dinner and movies

But if I showed up at your door

[Chorus]:Would you give me one more minute
The story's far from finished

We could fill in all the pages

I'm feeling sick,

girl you're so contagious

Just wanna say I miss you, I caught it when I kissed you

And I've been through all the stages

I'm feeling sick, girl you're so contagious(I'm feeling sick, girl you're so contagious)

It was raining on a Wednesday

Doin' 95, 90 things left to say

Told myself to keep on driving'

Cause I left my heart with you

I never thought that I could walk away

Every second I'm regretting that I didn't stay

How could I just keep on driving

When I left my heart with you

You think all my friends are crazy

And I know you hate my car

Well I don't dont drive a Mercedes

But would it be that hard

To just give me one more minute...

[chorus]

How can I get a second chance?

Don't want you slippin' out my hands

Maybe the words'll come out right this time around (so contagious)

Just hear me out before I go

Things that I wanted you to know

Just let me in tonight, and I won't let you down(So contagious)

[ChorusX2]

3 more days & counting ,

Hi my sweetheart , 海派甜心

2009-12-19T01:06:00.001-08:00

海派甜心is so nice alright ! ((; Luozhixiang is seriously damn cute lahr huhr . ( Influenced by alynna ) Laughs ! Ah , currently waiting for the 8th episode to come out , can't wait !

It's 1.10AM in the morning , currently waiting for keeve , charlene , fishy & kor to online . Yep , it's so silly of me to wait for someone even though i know in my heart that it ain't going to happen . I just can't sleep well ); Daddy's still working . After tomorrow would be going out .

Do you know what's like to miss someone terribly and u dont even know how's the person is doing . Seems to me like he doesnt miss me at all . Oh well (;

Yesterday went to walmart and bought jelly bangles for US$3 for 20 of them , awesome right ! It's freaking cheap down here . It's expensive in singapore as the shipping price isn't cheap . Bought this 7 pairs of colorful earstuds and another legging (; All these items are all less than $5 alright . Looking forward buying dresses and more assessories ;D

well , i'm continuing to wait .
wait .

Yes, im a silly girl , a naive one , too .

USA ;

2009-12-17T12:46:00.000-08:00

heehees . The weather here is fine here . ((; Cool breeze aye . I'm missing everyone already ! lalala . I wuz surfing the net and i came upon this ; If i really could find a guy like that i'll be blessed . Laughs ' !

1.Watch the sunset together.
2. Whisper to each other.
3. Cook for each other.
4. Walk in the rain.
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other.
7. Roses.
8. Find out her favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.
9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
10. Write poetry for each other.
11. Hugs .
12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
13. If she runs away , chase after her.
14. When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.
15. When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.
16. Look into each other's eyes.
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
18. When in public, flirt with her.
19. Put love notes in her pocket when she isn't looking.
20. Buy her a ring.
21. Sing to her.
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
26. When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
27. love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in your lap.
28. Do cute things like write 'I love you' in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
37. Hang out with her friends.
38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with her.
42. Make sacrifices for her.
43. Really love her, or don't stay together.
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about her, and make sure she knows it.
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
47. Dedicate songs to her on the radio.
48. Fall asleep on the phone with her
49. Stand up for her when someone talks trash.
50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."

1...2...3... blast off (:

2009-12-15T04:37:00.000-08:00

CHARLOTTE COME BACK ALR ((; YIPEE ! ;D But the sad thing is , I'm flying off tomorrow . Sobsob .

Yes I'm flying off to USA tomorrow , don't miss me alright , ahahaha !! * i know you will anyway * Laughs ! (:

Went to tampines to meet hwee jing soul sista & kor . Bought hwee jing long yearned bigbig dolphin ahahaha ! She insisted buying me something so she bought me this piggy which head is bigger than me . ahahaha ! yepyep . Thankyous soul sis ;DD

Completed home econ proj , still have a little touching up to do yeah .

I'm going to get homesick man . ): sobsob . Byebye people );

Lalala , LOVE YOU ALL ;D;D <3

MUACKS ! hehehe !

Charlotte !

2009-12-11T07:05:00.000-08:00

My charlotte flew off this afternoon ): I MISS HER OH SO MUCH ALREADY ! The best part is , when she is coming back , im flying off , which is like , god . I'm guna cry ):

My bestie for seven years aye ! ((: Bon voyage , take care of yourself yeah ;DD Ahhhh , looking back into the past , both of our looks had changed like seriously a lot luhr ! yesyes . I was the two ponytail girl ( retard ) and she was e chubby lil girl . Yep , time flies ;O

I dont have e time to fish out all e old photos w/ me and her , but i promise you , my dear , i will someday ! ((: I love you charlotte ! take care & come back in one piece alright ! ;DD

MUACKS MUACKS !! AHAHAHA ! I sound like a les ._. okay okay ,
TAKE CARE LOTTIE ! (:

xoxo .

Pasir ris ((:

2009-12-10T04:36:00.000-08:00

Today , went to pasir ris ehub w/ ah kor . Went to watch princess and e frog ((; it's a quite a nice movie yeah ;DD A classic Walt disney flim . The bad guy alwis die and live happily ever after , LOL . hahaha okay okay just kidding .

After tht i realised that i had lost my earring as it wasnt in my bag anymore , sigh . Went to ETP and played . So he dragged me to play e goal kart thingy which is like super fast ;O After tht he dragged me again to play wet and wild . Before tht went to buy poncho as he's afraid of getting wet and get scolding by his parents . The best part is , he doesnt even know how to wear it . Big baby =.= have to teach him how to wear it aye . Hmmm , so I've never played before and therefore was prettaye scared siol .

Forced kor to sit infront and i kept kicking his butt . wahahahaha ! so fun aye ;DD Soul sister you must be happy oh ((: After e ride i wuz all wet whilte he's like so dry . argh . Went to sit viking and my clothes are almost dried up ;DD

Went home and bought dinner . Saw kelly and her friend/boyf/bro ? i dont know . hehe . bathed and slack . Here i am sitting here again , typing . hehehe .

Charlotte ! I'll find you your christmas present okay , dont worraye ! ((:
Hweejing ! Don't sad luhr huhr .
Yongxuan ! I'll talk to you tonight alright . ;DD
Nick ! I'm fine no needa worry anymore (:

toodles !

EXTREME ! NETBALL CARNIVAL

2009-12-09T04:50:00.000-08:00

Extreme netball carnival wuz oh so tiring , but super shiok ey ((:

Cuz' we owned yishun netballers 08-01 . Yeah ;DD ! Finally got our revenge . I seriously hate someone in that team you'd know , argh . She's just pissing me off . Whenever i think about that match my blood will always boil right to the top .

So i've played WD & GK , tiring ): Well at least we get to trash yishun & got at least plate div. 4th ((: I'm so not guna play w/ yishun anymore alright ): I'm really pissed . hehe .

So here i am sitting infront of the computer w/ my lights fixed and air conditioned , ah . Relax . It's been a tough day for me as i dont do so much sprinting till today . Clapclaps ! We've played 8 matches , wow . hehe . Jiayou netballers ! (:

Alynna must be slacking or sleeping ley . haha !

It's quite a wonderful day as we get to experience e real competition atmosphere as well as

getting my lights fixed ( oh yeah ! ) I hate it when there isn't any light , grr .

Where are my 2 heros ? ): I'm so lonely now . sigh .